It's so hard to say, "I'm sorry," it's so hard to self reflect
Make the world a better place, I put a bullet in my head
I'm still running outta friends, steady running from the past
Ain't no lil' piece of heaven, all these demons that I have
It's so hard to say, "I'm sorry," it's so hard to self reflect
Make the world a better place, I put a bullet in my head
I'm still running outta friends, steady running from the past
Ain't no lil' piece of heaven, all these demons that I have
I am broken, I am tired, I am lonely and depressed
I am made up of mistakes, I'll start going down the list
I'm a product of my father, I'm an addict like my sister
I'm so sick, I need a doctor
Spent some time in institutions back at home with my mama
Had to run away to Houston
Had a girl, she was a goddess, I fucked up and had to lose her
I see darkness all around me, put my soul into the music
I am always fucking doubting my every single movement
I saw violence in my home, I seen shit I can't forget
I got anxieties and tendencies and memories repressed
Rip this shit up off my chest, put these bullets in a clip
Press the muzzle to my face and pull the trigger, now I'm—
It's so hard to end it all, I wanna try to make it right
It's so hard to live at all, all these obstacles in life
Make it hard for us all, made a fuck-up of my life
I'll give anything at all to take back a little time
[Verse 2]
I'm a beast, I'm a dawg, I'm a runaway slave
I'm like Malcolm, I'm like Martin bein' locked in a cage
Tell Jesus, "Come and save me, I got goals and a pager"
Misdemeanors on the papers, El Dorados on the Daytons
See me float above the pavement
I'm a fuckin' mental patient, that's my fuckin' mission statement
I've been sittin', waitin' patient
I can hear what niggas sayin', send me curses, see me prayin'
I can sell a blunt to Satan, all these trenches that I lay in
All this chaos that I stay in, see my fate and know it's waitin'
This a new beginning, call me Jesus, king of niggas
My sermon is delivered, rollin' swishers, writin' scriptures
Many pains and many issues, this my written crucifixion
I'ma sing a song of David, I remember Wayne and Baby
I done seen them niggas leakin'
Screamin', "Jesus, come and save me"
I don't know if I'ma make it, I just know that life ain't easy
Gettin' harder while I'm breathin', niggas die inside of Beamers
They don't even need a reason, guns clappin', get to squeezin'
Niggas killin', it ain't easy, rent due and it ain't easy
Call his name but he ain't breathin', momma cryin', it ain't easy
Hard times, it ain't easy
It ain't easy
很难说，“我很抱歉，”这很难自我反省
让世界变得更美好，我把一颗子弹放在脑海里
我还在跑出朋友，从过去稳定奔跑
我不是所有这些恶魔的天堂
我很伤心，我很累，我很孤单，很沮丧
我是由错误组成的，我将开始列入清单
我是我父亲的产物，我是像我妹妹一样的瘾君子
我生病了，我需要医生
花了一些时间回到家里和妈妈一起回家
不得不跑到休斯敦
有一个女孩，她是一个女神，我搞砸了，不得不失去她
我看到周围的黑暗，把我的灵魂融入音乐中
我总是他妈的怀疑我的每一个动作
我在家里看到暴力，我看到狗屎我无法忘记
我得到压抑的焦虑，倾向和记忆
从胸口撕下这个狗屎，把这些子弹放在一个夹子里
按下枪口到我的脸上并扣动扳机，现在我 -
结束这一切真是太难了，我想尽力做到最好
生活中的所有这些障碍都难以生存
让我们所有人都难过，让我的生活搞砸了
我会给任何东西以收回一点时间
[诗歌2]
我是一个野兽，我是一个笨蛋，我是一个失控的奴隶
我就像马尔科姆，我就像马丁被关在笼子里一样
告诉耶稣，“来救我，我有目标和传呼机”
文件上的不端行为，Dayton上的El Dorados
看到我浮在人行道上面
我是一个他妈的'精神病患者，这是我他妈的'使命宣言
我一直在坐着，等着耐心等待
我能听到什么黑鬼说'，给我诅咒，看到我祈祷'
我可以向撒旦直言不讳，我所有的这些战壕都是如此
所有这些混乱，我留在，看到我的命运，知道它在等待'
这是一个新的开始，称我为黑鬼之王耶稣
我的讲道是交付的，罗林'swinhers，写'经文
许多痛苦和许多问题，这是我的书面钉十字架
我是一首大卫的歌，我记得韦恩和宝贝
我看到他们黑鬼泄漏'
Screamin'，“耶稣，来救我吧”
我不知道如果我能成功，我只知道生活并不容易
当我呼吸时，开始变得更加困难，黑鬼死在Beamers里面
他们甚至不需要理由，guns clappin'，得到挤压'
黑鬼杀人'，这不容易，租金到期并不容易
叫他的名字，但他不是在呼吸，妈妈哭了，这并不容易
困难时期，这并不容易
这并不容易