The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Dúirt an dochtúir le labhairt leis
Dá dteastódh uaim éirí as mo bhoinn
Ach níor ghlaoigh mé riamh ar a oifig isteach
Poured an buidéal sa truflais is féidir
Tá mé greamaithe san árasán seo agus
Táim imníoch mar go bhfuil na próistí anseo
Rinne mé iarracht glaoch, cosúil le mo chairde go léir
Agus níl aon cheann acu ag freagairt
An é seo an nóiméad nach féidir liom é a rialú?
Ní bhfuair mé aon goile, is dóigh liom go bhfuil an páirtí thart
Ní féidir liom codladh san oíche, agus coinním rolladh os a chionn
Is é atá i gceist le mo chraiceann ná mo chraiceann agus an paranoia
Fuair mé buartha, tinn, agus tá sé chomh míshásta
Bhí mé ag caitheamh suas, d'fhéach sé ar ola mhótair
Ach roghnaigh mé éirí as, agus anois ní féidir liom é a sheachaint
Is iad na rudaí cearta atá le déanamh na roghanna is deacra
An é seo an nóiméad nuair a bhíonn deontóir de dhíth orm?
Theip ar an ae ón deoch a dhoirteadh
Tá an seomra go léir ag sníomh, ní vodca, sóid é
Tá an rud atá beagnach marú orm a bheith sober
[Réamh-Chorus]
Labhair faoi na gaistí
Timpeallaithe ag ballaí brící
Is é seo an rud a ghlaonn páistí
Aistarraingtí
[Chorus]
Scrios gach uimhir ó mo ghuthán, tá mé ag fanacht sa bhaile
Is mian liom go raibh mé ar meisce le mo chairde go léir
Tá mé ag dul a bhualadh nó ní dhéanfaidh mé agus ní dhéanfaidh mé ródháileog
Is mian liom go raibh mé ard le mo chairde go léir
[Véarsa 2]
Ná tabhair aire do theiripeoir
Mo shuaimhneas suaite
Níl sé cothrom le cuimilt leis seo
Cuir andúile ar mo thuismitheoirí isteach
Ní dhéanfaidh mé scanraithe a dheisiú riamh
An faillí dheonach
An caitheamh agus an cuimilt a rinne mo chuid earráidí
Bhí orthu beagnach mé a adhlacadh
An é seo an nóiméad ina scriú mé suas agus athiompú?
Dramhaíl go léir mo chuid airgid ar athshlánú
Ní féidir liom pill a thógáil ón dochtúir chun scíth a ligean
Lash amach i fearg aon uair a imoibríonn mé
Más maith leat fear lag, ní theastaíonn uaim a bheith sin
Maireachtáil gach lá chun buzz a fháil ar an deireadh seachtaine
Táim sa deireadh domhain, ag troid le deamhain
Tryna fanacht glan, ní mór dom ach cúis a bheith agam
Tá mo chnámha ag croitheadh agus mo lámha agus mo chosa
Feicim mo chliabhán rib, ach ní féidir liom ithe
Dúisigh mé fós ag dul suas, mar sin ní féidir liom codladh
Ní féidir liom ach suí sa dabhach folctha agus déan iarracht análú a dhéanamh
[Réamh-Chorus]
Labhair faoi na gaistí
Timpeallaithe ag ballaí brící
Is é seo an rud a ghlaonn páistí
Aistarraingtí
[Chorus]
Scrios gach uimhir ó mo ghuthán, tá mé ag fanacht sa bhaile
Is mian liom go raibh mé ar meisce le mo chairde go léir
Tá mé ag dul a bhualadh nó ní dhéanfaidh mé agus ní dhéanfaidh mé ródháileog
Is mian liom go raibh mé ard le mo chairde go léir
[Droichead]
Níor mhothaigh mé riamh dona riamh roimhe seo
Níl a fhios agam an ndéanfaidh mé é
Ná bíodh an neart agat chun éirí as an urlár anois
Ach táim ag súil le guí agus ag guí
Bhí mé níos mó ag mo shaol ar fad
B'fhéidir gurb é seo an deireadh
Ach anois bhí an iomarca spraoi agam, tá sé thart anois
Thaitin liom an rud a bhí fuath liom
[Chorus]
Scrios gach uimhir ó mo ghuthán, tá mé ag fanacht sa bhaile
Is mian liom go raibh mé ar meisce le mo chairde go léir
Tá mé ag dul a bhualadh nó ní dhéanfaidh mé agus ní dhéanfaidh mé ródháileog
Is mian liom go raibh mé ard le mo chairde go léir
Scrios gach uimhir ó mo ghuthán, tá mé ag fanacht sa bhaile
Is mian liom go raibh mé ar meisce le mo chairde go léir
Tá mé ag dul a bhualadh nó ní dhéanfaidh mé agus ní dhéanfaidh mé ródháileog
Is mian liom go raibh mé ard le mo chairde go léir