The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Doktè a te di pou pale ak li
Si mwen te vle jwenn med Meds mwen an
Men, mwen pa janm rele biwo li nan
Vide boutèy la nan fatra a kapab
Mwen kole nan apatman sa a ak
Mwen enkyete tankou flik yo isit la
Mwen te eseye rele, tankou, tout zanmi m 'yo
E okenn nan yo reponn
Èske se moman sa a kote mwen pa ka kontwole li?
Pa gen okenn apeti, mwen devine pati a sou
Mwen pa ka dòmi nan mitan lannwit, e mwen kenbe woule sou
Lakòz po mwen an grate ak paranoya a
Te fè m 'enkyete, malad, epi li se konsa anmèdan
Mwen te voye moute, li te sanble lwil motè
Men, mwen te chwazi kite fimen, e kounye a, mwen pa ka evite li
Bon bagay pou fè yo se chwa ki pi difisil yo
Èske sa se moman sa a lè mwen bezwen yon donatè?
Fwa li pap resevwa nan likè a vide
Tout chanm nan se k ap vire, li pa vodka, soda
Ki sa ki prèske touye m 'se ke yo te modere
[Pre-koral]
Pale sou enkonvenyans yo
Antoure pa mi brik
Sa a se sa ki timoun yo rele
Retrè
[CHORUS]
Efase chak nimewo nan telefòn mwen, mwen rete lakay ou
Vrèman swete ke mwen te bwè ak tout zanmi m 'yo
Mwen pral bat li oswa mwen pa pral ak surdozaj
Vrèman swete ke mwen te wo ak tout zanmi m 'yo
[Vèsè 2]
Pa janm pran swen terapis
Awogans mwen anbarasan
Li pa jis yo chire ak sa a
Dejwe kote paran mwen an
Mwen pè reparasyon pa janm ap ranje
Neglijans volontè la
Mete a ak dlo erè mwen te fè
Yo prèske te antere m '
Èske sa se moman sa a kote mwen vis ak rplonje?
Waste tout lajan mwen sou reyabilitasyon
Pa ka pran yon grenn nan men doktè a yo detann
Kout fwèt soti nan kòlè chak fwa mwen reyaji
Santi tankou yon nonm fèb, mwen pa vle pou sa
K ap viv chak jou yo ka resevwa yon Buzz nan fen semèn nan
Mwen nan fen gwo twou san fon an, goumen ak move lespri yo
Tryna rete pwòp, mwen jis reyèlman bezwen yon rezon
Zo mwen yo souke ak men m 'ak pye
Mwen wè kalòj kòt mwen an, men mwen pa ka manje
Mwen toujou reveye paniquing, se konsa mwen pa ka dòmi
Mwen jis chita nan basen lan epi eseye respire
[Pre-koral]
Pale sou enkonvenyans yo
Antoure pa mi brik
Sa a se sa ki timoun yo rele
Retrè
[CHORUS]
Efase chak nimewo nan telefòn mwen, mwen rete lakay ou
Vrèman swete ke mwen te bwè ak tout zanmi m 'yo
Mwen pral bat li oswa mwen pa pral ak surdozaj
Vrèman swete ke mwen te wo ak tout zanmi m 'yo
[Pon]
Mwen pa janm te santi sa a move anvan
Mwen pa konnen si mwen pral fè li
Pa gen fòs la jwenn sou planche a kounye a
Men, mwen espere ak lapriyè
Tout lavi mwen te vle plis
Sa a ta ka fen an
Men koulye a, mwen te gen plezi twòp, li la sou kounye a
Mwen te renmen sa mwen te rayi
[CHORUS]
Efase chak nimewo nan telefòn mwen, mwen rete lakay ou
Vrèman swete ke mwen te bwè ak tout zanmi m 'yo
Mwen pral bat li oswa mwen pa pral ak surdozaj
Vrèman swete ke mwen te wo ak tout zanmi m 'yo
Efase chak nimewo nan telefòn mwen, mwen rete lakay ou
Vrèman swete ke mwen te bwè ak tout zanmi m 'yo
Mwen pral bat li oswa mwen pa pral ak surdozaj
Vrèman swete ke mwen te wo ak tout zanmi m 'yo