The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
It-tabib qal li tkellem miegħu
Jekk ridt nitlaq il-meds tiegħi
Imma jien qatt ma sejħet l-uffiċċju tiegħu
Jitferra l-flixkun fil-bott taż-żibel
Jien mwaħħal f'dan l-appartament u
Jien anzjużi bħall-kobob huma hawnhekk
Ipprova nċempel, bħal, ħbieb kollha tiegħi
U ħadd minnhom ma jwieġeb
Dan huwa l-mument fejn ma nistax nikkontrollah?
Ltqajna l-ebda aptit, naħseb li l-partit jispiċċa
Ma nistax norqod bil-lejl, u nżomm ir-rolling fuq
Jikkawżaw il-ġilda tiegħi hija ħakk u l-paranojja
Ltqajna me inkwetat, morda, u huwa tant tedjanti
Jien kont qed tarmi, deher bħal żejt tal-mutur
Imma għażilt nieqaf, u issa ma nistax nevitaha
L-affarijiet it-tajba li għandek tagħmel huma l-agħar għażliet
Dan huwa l-mument meta għandi bżonn donatur?
Fwied jonqos mill-likur tferriegħ
Il-kamra kollha hija għażil, mhix vodka, soda
Dak li huwa kważi qtil lili qed sober
[Pre-chorus]
Tkellem dwar iżvantaġġi
Mdawra minn ħitan tal-briks
Dan huwa dak gidjien sejħa
Irtirar
[Chorus]
Imħassar kull numru mit-telefon tiegħi, qed nibqa 'd-dar
Verament jixtiequ li I kien tinxtorob mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
Jien gonna taħbitha jew jien mhux se u doża eċċessiva
Verament jixtiequ li I kien għoli mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
[Verse 2]
Qatt m'għandek tieħu ħsieb it-terapista
Arroganza tiegħi imbarazzanti
Mhuwiex ġust li tiċrita ma 'dan
Id-dipendenza fuq il-ġenituri tiegħi f '
Jien tiswija jibża qatt mhu se jiffissa
In-negliġenza volontarja
L-ilbies u d-dmugħ l-iżbalji tiegħi
Huma kważi kellhom midfuna lili
Dan huwa l-mument fejn inħoss u r-rikaduta?
Skart flus kollha tiegħi fuq rehab
Ma tistax tieħu pillola mit-tabib biex jirrilassaw
Torbot fil-rabja kull meta nirreaġixxi
Tħossok bħal raġel dgħajjef, ma rridx li jkun dak
Ħajja kuljum biex tikseb buzz fuq il-weekend
Jien fl-aħħar fil-fond, il-ġlieda ma 'demons
Tryna jibqgħu nodfa, i biss verament bżonn raġuni
L-għadam tiegħi qed tħawwad u idejk u s-saqajn
Nara l-gaġġa tal-kustilja tiegħi, imma ma nistax niekol
Għadni nqum panicking, għalhekk ma nistax norqod
I biss ipoġġu fil-bathtub u jippruvaw jieħdu n-nifs
[Pre-chorus]
Tkellem dwar iżvantaġġi
Mdawra minn ħitan tal-briks
Dan huwa dak gidjien sejħa
Irtirar
[Chorus]
Imħassar kull numru mit-telefon tiegħi, qed nibqa 'd-dar
Verament jixtiequ li I kien tinxtorob mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
Jien gonna taħbitha jew jien mhux se u doża eċċessiva
Verament jixtiequ li I kien għoli mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
[Pont]
Jien qatt ma ħassejt dan ħażin qabel
Ma nafx jekk jienx nagħmilha
M'għandekx is-saħħa biex toħroġ mill-art issa
Imma jien bit-tama u nitolbu
Il-ħajja kollha tiegħi ridt aktar
Dan jista 'jkun it-tmiem
Imma issa kelli gost wisq, issa
Għoġobni dak li hated
[Chorus]
Imħassar kull numru mit-telefon tiegħi, qed nibqa 'd-dar
Verament jixtiequ li I kien tinxtorob mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
Jien gonna taħbitha jew jien mhux se u doża eċċessiva
Verament jixtiequ li I kien għoli mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
Imħassar kull numru mit-telefon tiegħi, qed nibqa 'd-dar
Verament jixtiequ li I kien tinxtorob mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi
Jien gonna taħbitha jew jien mhux se u doża eċċessiva
Verament jixtiequ li I kien għoli mal-ħbieb kollha tiegħi