The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Shifokor u bilan gaplashishni aytdi
Agar men medsimdan tushishni xohlasam
Lekin men hech qachon o'z kabinetini chaqirmaganman
Shishani axlat qutisiga quydi
Men bu kvartirada qoldim va
Men bu erda bo'lganlar kabi tashvishlanaman
Men barcha do'stlarim kabi qo'ng'iroq qilishga harakat qildim
Va ularning hech biri javob bermaydi
Bu men uni boshqara olmaydigan paytmi?
Ishtaha yo'q, menimcha, partiyaning tugadi
Kechasi uxlay olmayman va men uni aylantiraman
Terim qichishish va paranoyiya
Meni tashvishga soladi, kasal va bu juda zerikarli
Men otdim, u motor moyiga o'xshardi
Ammo men ishdan bo'shatishni tanladim va endi men undan qochib qutula olmayman
To'g'ri ish qilish eng qiyin tanlov
Menga donor kerak bo'lgan paytmi?
Likyordan kam bo'lmagan jigar
Xona, aylanadi, bu aroq, soda
Meni deyarli o'ldiradigan narsa - hushyor
[Xordan oldin]
Xo'rr-qizlar haqida gapiring
G'isht devorlari bilan o'ralgan
Bolalar qo'ng'iroq qilishadi
Pulni olish
[Xor]
Telefonimdan har raqamni o'chirib tashladim, men uyda qoldim
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan mast bo'lishimni tilayman
Men uni uraman yoki men haddan tashqari oshirmayman
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan balandligimni tilayman
[2-oyat]
Hech qachon terapevtga ahamiyat bermang
Mening kibrim xijolatli
Bu bilan birga yirtish adolatli emas
Giyohvandlik ota-onamda
Men qo'riqlash men hech qachon tuzatmayman
Ixtiyoriy beparvolik
Xatolarimni kiyish va yirtib tashlashdi
Ular meni ko'mishi deyarli kerak edi
Bu men vidalanib, qayta ishlashim mumkinmi?
Rabbimdagi barcha pullarimni isrof qiladi
Doktordan dam olish uchun tabletka ololmaydi
Men o'zimni xafa qilganimda g'azablang
O'zini zaif odam kabi his eting, men bu bo'lishni xohlamayman
Dam olish kunida buzzni olish uchun har kuni yashash
Men chuqur oxiridaman, jinlar bilan kurashaman
Trek toza bo'lsin, men shunchaki sababga muhtojman
Mening suyaklarim silkinish va oyoqlarim va oyoqlarim
Men qovurg'a qafasimni ko'rmoqdaman, lekin men yeolmayman
Men hali ham vahima uyg'otdim, shuning uchun men uxlay olmayman
Men shunchaki vannada o'tiraman va nafas olishga harakat qilaman
[Xordan oldin]
Xo'rr-qizlar haqida gapiring
G'isht devorlari bilan o'ralgan
Bolalar qo'ng'iroq qilishadi
Pulni olish
[Xor]
Telefonimdan har raqamni o'chirib tashladim, men uyda qoldim
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan mast bo'lishimni tilayman
Men uni uraman yoki men haddan tashqari oshirmayman
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan balandligimni tilayman
[Ko'prik]
Men ilgari hech qachon buni sezmaganman
Men buni qila olamanmi, bilmayman
Hozir poldan tushish uchun kuchingiz yo'q
Lekin men umid qilaman va ibodat qilaman
Mening butun hayotim ko'proq narsani xohladim
Bu oxiri bo'lishi mumkin
Ammo endi men juda ko'p qiziqarli edim, hozircha
Men nimadan nafratlangan narsalarimni yaxshi ko'rardim
[Xor]
Telefonimdan har raqamni o'chirib tashladim, men uyda qoldim
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan mast bo'lishimni tilayman
Men uni uraman yoki men haddan tashqari oshirmayman
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan balandligimni tilayman
Telefonimdan har raqamni o'chirib tashladim, men uyda qoldim
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan mast bo'lishimni tilayman
Men uni uraman yoki men haddan tashqari oshirmayman
Haqiqatan ham barcha do'stlarim bilan balandligimni tilayman