The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Chiremba akati auye naye
Dai ndaida kuburuka meds yangu
Asi ini handina kumboti hofisi yake mukati
Akadururira bhodhoro mumarara anogona
Ndakanamatira mufurati iyi uye
Ndiri kunetseka kunge mapurisa ari pano
Ndakaedza kufona, senge, shamwari dzangu dzese
Uye hapana mumwe wavo ari kupindura
Ino ndiyo nguva yandisingakwanise kuzvidzora here?
Handina kukumbira, ndinofungidzira bato racho pamusoro
Ini handikwanise kurara husiku, uye ndinoramba ndichifamba-famba
Kukonzera kuti ganda rangu riite uye paranoia
Ndinorwara, ndichirwara, uye zvinogumbura
Ndanga ndichikanda kumusoro, zvaiita kunge mafuta emota
Asi ndakasarudza kurega, uye ikozvino handikwanise kudzivisa
Izvo zvinhu zvakanaka zvekuita sarudzo dzakaoma kwazvo
Ino ndiyo nguva pandinoda anopa here?
Chiropa chiri kukundikana kubva kuchinwiwa kudururwa
Kamuri yose iri kupuruzira, haina vodka, soda
Izvo zvinoda kundiuraya chiri kusvinura
[Pre-Pre-chorus]
Taura nezve misoro
Yakakomberedzwa nemadziro ezvidhinha
Izvi zvinofona nevana
Kubvisa
[Chorus]
Yakabviswa nhamba yese kubva pafoni yangu, ini ndiri kugara kumba
Chaizvoizvo dai ndakadhakwa neshamwari dzangu dzese
Ndiri kuzorova kana ini handichazopfugama
Chaizvoizvo dai ndanga ndakakwira neshamwari dzangu dzese
[Ndima 2]
Usambotarisira kurapa
Kuzvikudza kwangu kunyadzisa
Hazvina kunaka kubvarura neizvi
Kupindwa muropa kwevabereki vangu mukati
Ini ndinotya kugadziriswa hazvizombofi ndakagadzirisa
Kusava nehanya kwekuzvidira
Kupfeka uye kubvarura zvikanganiso zvangu
Ivo vakapotsa vanga vandiviga
Ino ndiyo nguva yandakasvetukira kumusoro ndikadzokerazve?
Kutambisa mari yangu yese paRehab
Haugone kutora piritsi kubva kuna chiremba kuzorora
Lash kunze kwehasha pese pandinoita
Unzwe kunge munhu asina kusimba, ini handidi kudaro
Kurarama Mazuva ese kuti utore BUZA pakupera kwevhiki
Ndiri mumugumo wakadzika, kurwa nemadhimoni
Tryna ramba wakachena, ini ndinongoda chikonzero
Mapfupa angu ari kudedera uye maoko angu nemakumbo
Ndiri kuona mbabvu yangu cage, asi ini handigoni kudya
Ndichiri kumuka kutya, saka handikwanise kurara
Ini ndinongogara mubhavhu rekugezera uye edza kufema
[Pre-Pre-chorus]
Taura nezve misoro
Yakakomberedzwa nemadziro ezvidhinha
Izvi zvinofona nevana
Kubvisa
[Chorus]
Yakabviswa nhamba yese kubva pafoni yangu, ini ndiri kugara kumba
Chaizvoizvo dai ndakadhakwa neshamwari dzangu dzese
Ndiri kuzorova kana ini handichazopfugama
Chaizvoizvo dai ndanga ndakakwira neshamwari dzangu dzese
[Bridge]
Handisati ndambonzwa zvakaipa izvi zvisati zvaitika
Handizive kana ndichiiita
Usave nesimba rekubvisa pasi izvozvi
Asi ndiri kutarisira uye kunyengetera
Hupenyu hwangu hwese ndaida zvimwe
Izvi zvinogona kuve mugumo
Asi ikozvino ndanga ndakanyanyisa kunakidzwa, zvapera izvozvi
Ini ndaida zvandavenga
[Chorus]
Yakabviswa nhamba yese kubva pafoni yangu, ini ndiri kugara kumba
Chaizvoizvo dai ndakadhakwa neshamwari dzangu dzese
Ndiri kuzorova kana ini handichazopfugama
Chaizvoizvo dai ndanga ndakakwira neshamwari dzangu dzese
Yakabviswa nhamba yese kubva pafoni yangu, ini ndiri kugara kumba
Chaizvoizvo dai ndakadhakwa neshamwari dzangu dzese
Ndiri kuzorova kana ini handichazopfugama
Chaizvoizvo dai ndanga ndakakwira neshamwari dzangu dzese