The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Den Dokter sot fir mat him ze schwätzen
Wann ech wollt meng Med
Awer ech hunn ni säi Büro geruff
Huet d'Fläsch an der Dreck geroden
Ech stiechen an dësem Appartement an
Ech sinn ängschtlech wéi d'Polstersëtz sinn hei
Ech hu probéiert ze ruffen, wéi, all meng Frënn
An keen vun hinnen äntweren
Ass dëse Moment wou ech et net kontrolléieren?
Krut keen Appetit, ech mengen d'Party eriwwer
Ech kann net an der Nuecht schlofen, an ech wäert weider rullen
Cause meng Haut ass itchy an d'Paranoia
Huet mech besuergt, krank, an et ass sou lästeg
Ech hunn opgeworf, et huet wéi Motor Ueleg ausgesinn
Awer ech hu gewielt opzehalen, an elo kann ech et net vermeiden
Déi richteg Saachen ze maachen sinn déi schwéierst Wiel
Ass dëse Moment wann ech en Don brauch?
Liewer versoen aus dem Likör op
All Raum ass spining, et ass net Vodka, Soda
Wat ass bal ëmbruecht mech ass sober
[Pre-Chouer]
Schwätzen iwwer Pitfalls
Ëmgi vun de Maueren
Dëst ass wat d'Kanner ruffen
Réckzuch
[Chorus]
Geläscht all Nummer aus mengem Telefon, ech bleiwen doheem
Wierklech wënschen datt ech mat all meng Frënn gedronk war
Ech wäert et schloën oder ech wäert net an Iwwerdosis
Wierklech wënschen datt ech héich mat all meng Frënn war
[Vers 2]
Suergfalt ni fir Therapeut
Meng Arrogance Duercherneen
Et ass net gerecht fir mat dësem ze räissen
Sucht Plaz meng Elteren an
Ech sinn Angscht Reparatur wäert ni fixen
Déi fräiwëlleg Noléissegkeet
Déi Verschleiung an huet meng Feeler gemaach
Si hu bal mech begruewen
Ass dëse Moment wou ech opgestan an de Réckwee?
Offall all meng Suen op Rehab
Kann keng Pille aus dem Dokter huelen fir ze relaxen
Lash eraus an Roserei wann ech reagéieren
Fillt wéi e schwaache Mann, ech wëll dat net sinn
Wunnen all Dag fir e Buzz um Weekend ze kréien
Ech sinn am déifen Enn, kämpft mat Dämonen
Tryna bleift propper, ech brauch just e Grond
Meng Schanken schüttelen an meng Hänn a Féiss
Ech gesinn meng Rippkäfeg, awer ech kann net iessen
Ech erwächen ëmmer nach panikelen, also kann ech net schlofen
Ech sëtze just an der Bidden a probéiert ze otmen
[Pre-Chouer]
Schwätzen iwwer Pitfalls
Ëmgi vun de Maueren
Dëst ass wat d'Kanner ruffen
Réckzuch
[Chorus]
Geläscht all Nummer aus mengem Telefon, ech bleiwen doheem
Wierklech wënschen datt ech mat all meng Frënn gedronk war
Ech wäert et schloën oder ech wäert net an Iwwerdosis
Wierklech wënschen datt ech héich mat all meng Frënn war
[Bréck]
Ech hunn dat net sou schlecht gefillt
Ech weess net ob ech et maachen
Hutt net d'Kraaft fir de Buedem elo ze kommen
Mee ech hoffen a biet
Mäi ganzt Liewen wollt ech méi
Dëst ass vläicht d'Enn
Awer elo hunn ech ze vill Spaass, et ass elo eriwwer
Ech hu gär wat ech gehaasst hunn
[Chorus]
Geläscht all Nummer aus mengem Telefon, ech bleiwen doheem
Wierklech wënschen datt ech mat all meng Frënn gedronk war
Ech wäert et schloën oder ech wäert net an Iwwerdosis
Wierklech wënschen datt ech héich mat all meng Frënn war
Geläscht all Nummer aus mengem Telefon, ech bleiwen doheem
Wierklech wënschen datt ech mat all meng Frënn gedronk war
Ech wäert et schloën oder ech wäert net an Iwwerdosis
Wierklech wënschen datt ech héich mat all meng Frënn war