Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
Hey! Ji ber ku we rûyê min dît ev dem e
Ez ne pir mezin bûm
Ji ber vê yekê min piçek şikestî kişand
Gelek kes li ser min hin tiştan dibêjin ku ne rast in
Ne girîng e ku ew rast e, her çend
Hîna ku ew ji we re xweş e, rast?
Hûn mirovên kêfê dikin?
[Qoro]
Hemî li ser trêna gosîk a toksîk
Kulîlkên li ser şopên misinformasyonê
Trêna gosîk ya toksîk
We li stasyona Manipulation bilêtek yek-rê girt
Trêna gossipê ya toksîk
Min girêdin tracks û ji min re ji bo paşeroja xwe zordar bikin
Ew rumor mîna rastiyan xuya dikin heke hûn nekevin holê
Ez ê di qezayê de nekim, lê hey
Qet nebe hûn havînê ne
[Gotin]
Uh, hi, her kes
Ez dixwazim werin serhêl û bi çend tiştan bi we re bipeyivim
, Um, her çend tîmê min bi tundî şîret kir ku ez nikarim bibêjim tiştê ku ez dixwazim bêjim
Min di vê dawiyê de fêm kir ku wan çu carî negot ku ez nikarim tiştê ku ez dixwazim bibêjim, wusa
Li vir ez im, û, um, îro ez tenê dixwazim li ser rastiyan biaxivim
Ji ber vê yekê, hêvî dikim ku hûn ê amade bin guhdarî bikin
Gelek xirab
Gelek sal berê, min berê xwe da temaşevanên min
Uh, lê ne bi awayek kemilandî ya mîna gelek ji we re hewl didin ku pêşniyar bikin
Ew ji celebek windahiyek wenda bû
Li ku ez tenê hewl didim ku bi her kesî re best bikim
Ew kinda mîna, uh, dema ku hûn diçin mîna kombûna malbatê, hûn dizanin?
There li wir xaltek ecêb heye ku li we tê û mîna "Hey, keç, çay diçû!"
Û hûn mîna "Ehhh" in
, Om, ew ez bûm, lê di komê de bi temaşevanên min re, ew ecêb bû
[Ayet 1]
Ez zêdetirî 15 salan jiyana xwe bi serhêl parve dikim
Min dilê xwe rijand û ji ber ku ez hest dikim
Jixwe ez bi hevalên xwe re diaxivim, lê di destpêka kariyera min de
Ez bi rastî fêm nakim ku dibe ku li wir hin sînor hene
Di DMS-ê de carinan carinan dema ku ez ê li ser çavan bimînim
Hûrguliyên jiyana min, ku bi rastî ji min ecêb bû
Min ew salan nekiriye, hûn dibînin
Ji ber ku min behreya xwe guhert, û min berpirsyariyê girt
[Gotin]
Lê ew ne pir balkêş e, gelo?
[Qoro]
Werin em biçin ser trêna gosîk a toksîk
Locomotive bi sûcên nefretan ve tê şewitandin
Trêna gosîk ya toksîk
Steamroll li ser Reputation Kesek
Trêna gossipê ya toksîk
Li ser panelê hop, lê çavên xwe nêzîk bikin, wekî din hûn ê fêm bikin
Ku trêna ji derew û ew kesê ku hûn şerm dikin têne çêkirin
Dibe ku ne heq bû ku bimire
Lê hey, bi kêmanî hûn havîn dikin
[Gotin]
Di her ciddî de, ez difikirim ku ew bi rastî girîng e ku mirov ji bo xeletiyên xwe berpirsiyar bigire
,, y'know, divê em hêvî bikin ku her kes dikare ji xeletiyên xwe fêr bibe
Û mezin bibin, û tevgera xwe biguhezînin, û kesek çêtir be
Ev tiştek e ku ez her gav hewl didim gava ku ez xelet dikim
Û tiştek heye ku ez ê hewl bidim ku t- çi bikim?
Oh, hûn eleqedar nabin? Oh, baş e
[Ayetek 2]
Ez difikirîm ku we dixwest ku ez hesabê bikim
Lê ew ne xala mentiqa weya mobîl e, ma? Na
Armanca we ev e ku hûn jiyana mirovê ku hûn şerm dikin wêran bikin
Dema ku hûn derewên xwe dramatiz dikin û cînayeta wan monet dikin
[Gotin]
Erê, um, ez hîs dikim ku ez berê dikarim şîroveyên li ser vê vîdyoyê bibihîzim
Ew gazên gazê ye, manipulasyona!
UGH, ew narcissist û ratek e!
Ez ê çu carî wekî xeletiyek nekim.
[Ayets 3]
Oh, ez poşman im ku min fêm nekir
Ku hûn hemî bêkêmasî ne, ji kerema xwe ji min re rexne bikin
Daggers ji paşeroja xwe ya bêkêmasî derxînin
Û min dubare li piçûka piçûka min paşde bixe
Ez bawer im ku hûn di strana min a piçûk ya şermê de bêhêvî ne
Ez dizanim ku we dixwest ku ez bibêjim ku ez di xelet de% 100 bû
Welê, ez xemgîn im, ez ê wê rêyê nekim
Pejirandin ku derew û rumorên ku we ji bo çokan çêkir
[Ayets 4]
Hey her kes, min kesek nû dît ku zordarî bike
Wê hin tiştên ku ez hez nakim, di paşeroja wê de
Ji ber vê yekê her kes, li dora xwe kom bikin, 'sedem ku em êriş bikin
Lê ne li ser bingeha rastiyan, oh na
Weaponeka Lethal ya Barkirî tiliyên we li ser keysan e
Gava ku hûn dikarin li pişt ekranek veşêrin, hûn hewceyê çekan nînin
Ji ber vê yekê, min gule barandin, bilez, bi klîk, û bam
Reputasyona min mirî
[Gotin]
Uh, min jî dixwest ku deqeyek bidim da ku ez li ser wê keçikê biaxivim, Miranda Sings
Hûn yek dizanin, erê wê
Uh, ew PG-13 e, ew li ser malpera min dibêje
[Ayets 5]
Û her gav bi vî rengî bû
That's ji ber vê yekê hûn ê vîdyoyên min li ser sepana zarokên youtube nebînin
An jî, um, min fêm nekir ku ew berpirsiyariya min bû
Da ku biryar bide ka ji bo dîtina her zarok çi guncan bû
Min her gav li ser dêûbavan bawer kir da ku biryar bidin ka ew rihet in
Bi malbatên xwe vîdyoyên xwe yên YouTube an tê pêşandanên zindî yên min
Naha, ma min çend henekên xwe di tama belengaz de çêkir? Erê
Ma min gelek xeletiyên dendik çêkiriye? Erê
Ma ez xemgîn im ku hin temaşevan hene ku hest dikin ku xayîn kiriye? Erê
Lê mebesta min ji bo manipulasyonê bû? Na
[Gotin]
Ew bi rastî ne girîng e ku mebesta min çi bû
Sedema ku ew wekî her kesê berê li ser wê biryar da
Bila ez ji we re vebêjim, ne pir xweş e ku bi mîlyonan mirovên li seranserê cîhanê hene
Gazî gotinên herî qelebar, tirsnak, şerm û jiyan-jiyan-jiyanê
Ku mirov dikare were gotin, bi dîtina min
, Ne girîng e ku ev tişt ne rast in
Uh, her kes tenê bawer dike ku hûn celebê kesê ku zarokan manipul dike û destdirêj dike
Ji ber vê yekê, min dixwest ku ez wiya bibêjim, um
Tenê tiştê ku min gumr kiriye du pisîkên min ên Farisî ye
Ez ne gumrik im, ez tenê windahiyek im
[Ayet 6]
Yê ku fam nekir divê ez bersivê nekim fans
I'm ez ne predator im her çend gelek ji we wisa difikirin
Ji ber ku 5 sal berê, min henekek fart çêkir
Ji ber vê yekê, her çend ez dizanim vê vîdyoyê dê di derheqê min de hişê min neguheze
Hîn jî min hîs kir ku ew girîng bû ku werin vir û ez piçekî biparêzim
Û berpirsiyariyê bigirin
Û min jî dixwest ku ez wiya bibêjim
Ji her kesê ku li wir di her kapasîteyê de piştgirî daye
[Gotin]
Ez bi rastî, bi rastî ji we re spas dikim, spas
Ji bo çi hêja ye, min tu carî niyetên xirab nebû
Lê ez hest dikim mîna shit
[Qoro]
Trêna gosîk ya toksîk
Kulîlkên li ser şopên misinformasyonê
Trêna gossipê ya toksîk
We bilêtek yek rê li ber stasyona manipulasyonê girt
Trêna gossipê ya toksîk
We min girêda tracks û min ji bo paşeroja xwe zordar kir
Gava ku hûn nekevin holê
Ez ê di qezayê de nekim, lê hey
Hêvî dikim ku we hinekî xweş bû
[Gotin]
Bi rastî, y'know, ez hest dikim ku dibe ku ez ji we re bikim ku ez tiştek dizanim, um
Wusa dixuye, dibe ku hûn li ser tiştek tevlihev bûne? Ez nizanim
Bila ez hewl bidim alîkariyê bikim, um
[جهر
Carinan mirov xeletiyek dikin û ew ji wan re ne kesek tirsnak, Whoa
Carinan mirov dikare xeletiyek çêbike û ew hîn jî mirovek baş in
Crazy, ez dizanim
Carinan mirov dikare xeletiyek bike û ne hewce ye ku ew xeletiyê bavêje, oh na
Û wê bizivirînin, û wê bişkînin, û hin derewan lê zêde bikin, û ew puls bikin
Û ew bi kêrê stabin û jiyanek xirab bikin, û, na na
Carinan mirov dikare xeletiyek bike, nayê vê wateyê ku hûn nefret dikin ji wan nefret dikin, oh na
Carinan mirov dikare xeletiyek çêbike û hûn dikarin bi kerema xwe wan agahdar bikin û ji wan re bibin alîkar ku mezin bibin
Carinan xelk xeletiyan dikin, tenê ji ber ku wan xeletiyek çêkir?
That ew xeletî ji wan re ne mirovek tirsnak e
Ew tenê wan dike mirov
[Gotin]
Lê ez çi dizanim?
Min fuck, rast?