Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Sanderlei Silveira - 22/02/2024 11:36 - US X
Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine
(Slippin' again) There I go, slippin' again, I'm actin' different again
I see my family's reflection
Every time I look in the cup and I sip it again
(After this ends) Tell me, after all this ends
Will I be mentioned again? Why do I care?
If in the end, it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again (Yeah)
(Slim, bring the beat in)
Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (Mm)
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called ma, said I forgive her
For not bein' there when I needed one
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
[Verse 2]
Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I been playin'
Is really just broken and fuckin' lost?
I swear, I've been tellin' you
Over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothin' I'm writin'
Cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable
Cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growin' up
No one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid
When me and my father fought (Yeah)
I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce
But it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient, with a pen and some paper (Mm)
This psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact
That my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to
Cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone to tell me who I really am
I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreadin' the day
That the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone
And not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love
As if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Feelin' like)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
最近，我的想法还活着
躺在床上
思考，也许仇恨终于消失了，如果我还活着
希望我不听
就像我希望他们有一次理解我
我崩溃了，除了一条线以外的整个身体
一切都很好
（再次滑倒）我去了，再次滑倒，我再次与众不同
我看到我家人的反思
每次我看杯子时，我都会再次饮
（在此结束之后）告诉我，这一切结束了
我会再次提及吗？我为什么要关心？
最后，只有我和上帝，就像我再次基督徒一样（是的）
（苗条，带来节拍）
在我父亲离开地球之前
他确保我接受了我不想要的所有品质
我本来应该在出生时死
给了我机会，我操了它，再给我另一个（毫米）
我一直在奔跑
我小时候藏了秘密，我从未面对过
我刚打电话给马，我原谅她
因为我需要一个时不要在那里
[合唱]
我回来了，只是让我走
我回来了，只是让我走，是的
我回来了，只是让我走
我回来了，不要让我走
[第2节]
音乐停止时我是谁？
和我扮演的角色
真的只是破碎了吗？
我发誓，我一直在告诉你
在所有这些歌曲中一遍又一遍地
但是他们没有听到“我写的”
因为他们太忙了，tryna把我弄出来
他们继续前进
很有趣，因为如果我们只是坐着说话
你会看到我很难脆弱
因为我把它封锁了
我有信任问题，成长
没有人在那里听到我的想法
我的心像我小时候的肋骨一样伤了
当我和我父亲战斗时（是的）
我正在用无法发音的东西进行药
但这就是医生给我的
康复患者，用笔和一些纸（mm）
这位精神科医生不断评估
我怎么能忍受事实
当我们失去婴儿时，我的手不在她的肚子上？
我没有人可以转向
因为我一生中的每个人都死了
搜索有人告诉我我真的是谁
我不知道什么时候照镜子
不断恐怖的一天
观众可能不再为我尖叫
独自死亡的感觉
不留下任何东西是我最大的恐惧
亲吻我爱的人
好像我离开门后永远不会回来
[合唱]
我回来了，让我走（感觉像）
我回来了，只是让我走，是的
我回来了，只是让我走
我回来了，不要让我走（MM）
我回来了，只是让我走（毫米）
我回来了，只是让我走，是的（毫米）
我回来了，只是让我走（毫米）
我回来了，不要让我走