Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Sanderlei Silveira - 22/02/2024 11:36 - US X
Lately, my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed
Thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen
Just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine
(Slippin' again) There I go, slippin' again, I'm actin' different again
I see my family's reflection
Every time I look in the cup and I sip it again
(After this ends) Tell me, after all this ends
Will I be mentioned again? Why do I care?
If in the end, it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again (Yeah)
(Slim, bring the beat in)
Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (Mm)
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called ma, said I forgive her
For not bein' there when I needed one
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
[Verse 2]
Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I been playin'
Is really just broken and fuckin' lost?
I swear, I've been tellin' you
Over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothin' I'm writin'
Cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable
Cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growin' up
No one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid
When me and my father fought (Yeah)
I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce
But it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient, with a pen and some paper (Mm)
This psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact
That my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to
Cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone to tell me who I really am
I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreadin' the day
That the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone
And not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love
As if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door
[Chorus]
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Feelin' like)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah (Mm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (Mm)
I'm comin' back, don't let me go
U posljednje vrijeme moje misli koje me jedu živim
Položen u krevet
Razmislite 'možda će mržnja napokon nestati ako nisam živa
Volio bih da nisam slušao
Baš kao što bih volio da bi me jednom razumjeli
Imao sam slom i razbio cijelo tijelo, osim jedne linije
Sve je sasvim u redu
(Opet proklizaj) Eto, idem, opet proklizam, opet se ponašam drugačije
Vidim odraz svoje obitelji
Svaki put kad pogledam u šalicu i ponovo je pijem
(Nakon završetka) recite mi, nakon što se sve ovo završava
Hoću li me opet spomenuti? Zašto me briga?
Ako sam na kraju, to sam samo ja i Bog, kao da sam opet kršćanin (da)
(Vitka, unesite ritam)
Prije nego što je moj otac napustio ovu zemlju
Pobrinuo se da preuzmem svaku kvalitetu koju nisam želio
Trebala sam umrijeti pri rođenju
Dao mi priliku i pojebao sam je, daj mi još jedan (mm)
Trčao sam od
Tajne koje sam sakrio kao dijete i nikad se nisam suočio
Samo sam nazvao Ma, rekao sam da joj opraštam
Jer ne tamo kad mi je trebao
[Zbor]
Vraćam se, samo me pusti
Vraćam se, samo me pusti, da, da
Vraćam se, samo me pusti
Vraćam se, ne puštaj me
[Stih 2]
Tko sam ja kad glazba prestane?
I lik koji sam igrao
Je li stvarno slomljen i jebeno izgubljen?
Kunem se, govorila sam te
Iznova i iznova u svim tim pjesmama
Ali ne čuju ništa ', pišem
Jer su previše zauzeti pokušati mi otpisati
I nastavljaju i dalje i dalje
Smiješno je, jer ako smo samo sjeli i razgovarali
Vidjeli biste da mi je jednostavno teško biti ranjiv
Jer sam ga blokirao
Imam problema s povjerenjem, odrastajući
Nitko nije bio tu da čuje što sam mislio
Srce mi je bilo slomljeno poput mojih rebara kao dijete
Kad smo se ja i moj otac borili (da)
Liječim s nečim što ne mogu izgovoriti
Ali to je ono što mi je liječnik dao
Pacijent s rehabilitacijom, s olovkom i nekim papirom (MM)
Ovaj psihijatar nastavlja ocjenjivati
Kako mogu živjeti s činjenicom
Da mi ruka nije bila na njenom trbuhu kad smo izgubili dijete?
Nemam nikoga kome se obratiti
Jer su svi mrtvi u mom životu što me je pokušalo podići
Tražiti da mi netko kaže tko sam uistinu
Ne znam kad se pogledam u ogledalo
Neprestano iscrpljujući dan
Da publika možda više ne vrišti za mene
Osjećaj umiranja sam
I ne ostavljati ništa iza sebe moj je najveći strah
Poljubi osobu koju volim
Kao da se nikad ne vraćam nakon što izlazim kroz vrata
[Zbor]
Vraćam se, samo me pusti (osjećam se kao)
Vraćam se, samo me pusti, da, da
Vraćam se, samo me pusti
Povratak, ne puštaj me (mm)
Povratak, samo me pusti (mm)
Povratak, samo me pusti, da (mm)
Povratak, samo me pusti (mm)
Vraćam se, ne puštaj me