The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
[Verse 2]
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 3]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
[Verse 4]
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Outro]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Lægen sagde at tale med ham
Hvis jeg ønskede at komme ud af mine meds
Men jeg ringede aldrig til sit kontor i
Hældte flasken i skraldespanden
Jeg sidder fast i denne lejlighed og
Jeg er ivrig efter at politiet er her
Jeg forsøgte at ringe, som alle mine venner
Og ingen af dem svarer
[Vers 2]
Er dette det øjeblik, hvor jeg ikke kan kontrollere det?
Fik ingen appetit, jeg gætter festen over
Jeg kan ikke sove om natten, og jeg fortsætter med at rulle over
Fordi min hud er kløende og paranoia
Fik mig bekymret, syg, og det er så irriterende
Jeg har kastet op, det lignede motorolie
Men jeg valgte at afslutte, og nu kan jeg ikke undgå det
De rigtige ting at gøre er de sværeste valg
Er dette det øjeblik, hvor jeg har brug for en donor?
Lever fejler fra væsken hælde
Alt Værelset spinder, det er ikke vodka, sodavand
Hvad der næsten dræber mig, er ædru
[Pre-Chorus]
Tal om faldgruber, omgivet af mursten
Dette er, hvad børnene kalder
Tilbagetrækning
[Kor]
Slettet hvert nummer fra min telefon, jeg bor hjemme
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var fuld af alle mine venner
Jeg vil slå det, eller jeg vil ikke og overdosis
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var høj med alle mine venner
[Vers 3]
Aldrig bryr sig om terapeut
Min arrogance pinligt
Det er ikke rimeligt at rive med dette
Afhængighed Placer mine forældre i
Jeg er bange reparation vil aldrig rette
Den frivillige forsømmelighed
Slid og rive mine fejl gjorde
De var næsten nødt til at begrave mig
[Vers 4]
Er dette det øjeblik, hvor jeg skruer op og tilbagefald?
Spilde alle mine penge på rehab
Kan ikke tage en pille fra lægen for at slappe af
Lash ud i vrede, når jeg reagerer
Føles som en svag mand, jeg vil ikke være det
Lever hver dag for at få en buzz i weekenden
Jeg er i den dybe ende, kæmper med dæmoner
Tryna forbliver rent, jeg har bare virkelig brug for en grund
Mine knogler ryster og mine hænder og fødder
Jeg ser min ribben bur, men jeg kan ikke spise
Jeg vågner stadig panik, så jeg kan ikke sove
Jeg sidder bare i badekarret og forsøger at trække vejret
[Pre-Chorus]
Tal om faldgruber, omgivet af mursten
Dette er, hvad børnene kalder
Tilbagetrækning
[Kor]
Slettet hvert nummer fra min telefon, jeg bor hjemme
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var fuld af alle mine venner
Jeg vil slå det, eller jeg vil ikke og overdosis
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var høj med alle mine venner
[Bro]
Jeg har aldrig følt det dårligt før
Jeg ved ikke, om jeg vil gøre det
Har ikke styrken til at komme ud af gulvet lige nu
Men jeg håber og beder
Mit hele liv jeg ønskede mere
Dette kan være enden
Men nu har jeg haft for meget sjov, det er over nu
Jeg elskede, hvad jeg hadede
[Kor]
Slettet hvert nummer fra min telefon, jeg bor hjemme
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var fuld af alle mine venner
Jeg vil slå det, eller jeg vil ikke og overdosis
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var høj med alle mine venner
[Outro]
Slettet hvert nummer fra min telefon, jeg bor hjemme
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var fuld af alle mine venner
Jeg vil slå det, eller jeg vil ikke og overdosis
Virkelig ønske, at jeg var høj med alle mine venner