The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
[Verse 2]
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 3]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
[Verse 4]
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Outro]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
医生说要跟他说话
如果我想让我的药物
但我从未叫他的办公室
把瓶子倒在垃圾桶里
我被困在这个公寓里
我像警察一样焦虑在这里
我试着打电话，就像我所有的朋友
没有一个人在回答
[verse 2]
这是我无法控制它的那一刻吗？
没有胃口，我猜党的结束了
我晚上无法入睡，我继续滚动
因为我的皮肤是痒和偏执
让我担心，生病，这太烦人了
我一直在呕吐，看起来像电机油
但我选择戒烟，现在我无法避免它
正确的事情是最艰难的选择
这是我需要捐赠者的那一刻吗？
肝脏从白酒浇注中失败
所有房间都在旋转，它不是伏特加，苏打水
几乎杀了我的是清醒的
[Pre-chorus]
谈论陷阱，包围砖墙
这就是孩子们所说的
提款
[合唱]
从我的手机删除每一个号码，我住在家里
真的希望我和所有朋友一起喝醉了
我要击败它，或者我不会和过量
真的希望我和所有朋友一起很高
[verse 3]
从不关心治疗师
我的傲慢尴尬
这是不公平的撕裂
成瘾让我的父母进来
我害怕修复永远不会修复
自愿疏忽
磨损我的错误做了
他们几乎不得不埋葬我
[verse 4]
这是我搞砸和复发的那一刻吗？
在康复上浪费我所有的钱
不能从医生那里吃避光
每当我做出反应时都会抨击愤怒
觉得一个弱者，我不想成为那个
每天居住在周末嗡嗡作响
我在深处，与恶魔斗争
Tryna保持清洁，我真的需要一个理由
我的骨头摇晃，我的手脚
我看到了我的肋骨，但我不能吃
我仍然醒来恐慌，所以我无法入睡
我只是坐在浴缸里，试着呼吸
[Pre-chorus]
谈论陷阱，包围砖墙
这就是孩子们所说的
提款
[合唱]
从我的手机删除每一个号码，我住在家里
真的希望我和所有朋友一起喝醉了
我要击败它，或者我不会和过量
真的希望我和所有朋友一起很高
[桥]
我以前从未觉得这么糟糕
我不知道我是否会成功
现在没有力量下车
但我希望和祈祷
我的一生都想要更多
这可能是结束
但现在我有太多的乐趣，现在已经结束了
我喜欢我讨厌的东西
[合唱]
从我的手机删除每一个号码，我住在家里
真的希望我和所有朋友一起喝醉了
我要击败它，或者我不会和过量
真的希望我和所有朋友一起很高
[Outro]
从我的手机删除每一个号码，我住在家里
真的希望我和所有朋友一起喝醉了
我要击败它，或者我不会和过量
真的希望我和所有朋友一起很高