The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
[Verse 2]
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 3]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
[Verse 4]
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls, surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Outro]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Liječnik je rekao da razgovara s njim
Ako želim sići s lijekova
Ali nikada nisam nazvao njegov ured
Izlila je bocu u kantu za smeće
Zaglavio sam u ovom stanu i
Ja sam zabrinut kao policajci su ovdje
Pokušao sam nazvati, svi moji prijatelji
I nitko od njih ne odgovara
[Stih 2]
Je li to u trenutku kada ga ne mogu kontrolirati?
Nema apetita, pretpostavljam da je zabava
Ne mogu spavati noću, a ja ću se prevrnuti
Jer moja koža je svrbež i paranoja
Zabrinuo sam me, bolesna i to je tako neugodno
Bacio sam se, izgledalo je poput motornog ulja
Ali odlučio sam odustati, a sada ga ne mogu izbjeći
Prave stvari koje treba učiniti su najteži izbori
Je li ovo trenutak kad mi trebam donator?
Jetra koja ne uspije iz tekućine
Sva soba se vrti, to nije votka, soda
Što me gotovo ubija je trijezan
[Pre-Chorus]
Razgovarajte o zamkama, okruženi zidovima od opeke
To je ono što djeca zovu
Povlačenje
[Chorus]
Izbrisao je svaki broj s mog telefona, ostajem kod kuće
Stvarno želim da sam bio pijan sa svim mojim prijateljima
Pobijedit ću ili neću predozirati
Stvarno želim da sam bio visok sa svim mojim prijateljima
[Stih 3]
Nikada ne brinite za terapeut
Moja arogancija sramota
Nije pošteno suza
Ovisnost Mjesto moje roditelje u
Bojim se popravak nikada neće popraviti
Dobrovoljni nemar
Nošenje i suza moje pogreške
Gotovo su me morali pokopati
[Stih 4]
Je li to u trenutku kad zajebavam i ponovno se vraćam?
Otpada sav moj novac na rehabilitaciju
Ne mogu uzeti tabletu od liječnika da se opusti
Istjerati u gnjevu kad god reagiram
Osjećam se kao slab čovjek, ne želim biti to
Živjeti svaki dan da biste dobili buzz vikendom
Ja sam u dubokom kraju, boreći se s demonima
Tryna ostati čist, stvarno mi je trebalo razlog
Moje kosti se trese i moje ruke i noge
Vidim svoj rebra, ali ne mogu jesti
I dalje se probudim paničenjem, pa ne mogu spavati
Samo sjedim u kadi i pokušavam disati
[Pre-Chorus]
Razgovarajte o zamkama, okruženi zidovima od opeke
To je ono što djeca zovu
Povlačenje
[Chorus]
Izbrisao je svaki broj s mog telefona, ostajem kod kuće
Stvarno želim da sam bio pijan sa svim mojim prijateljima
Pobijedit ću ili neću predozirati
Stvarno želim da sam bio visok sa svim mojim prijateljima
[Most]
Nikad prije nisam osjećao loše
Ne znam hoću li to učiniti
Nemam snage da odmah siš s poda
Ali nadam se i molim
Moj cijeli život sam htjela više
To može biti kraj
Ali sada sam imao previše zabave, sada je gotovo
Voljela sam ono što sam mrzio
[Chorus]
Izbrisao je svaki broj s mog telefona, ostajem kod kuće
Stvarno želim da sam bio pijan sa svim mojim prijateljima
Pobijedit ću ili neću predozirati
Stvarno želim da sam bio visok sa svim mojim prijateljima
[Outro]
Izbrisao je svaki broj s mog telefona, ostajem kod kuće
Stvarno želim da sam bio pijan sa svim mojim prijateljima
Pobijedit ću ili neću predozirati
Stvarno želim da sam bio visok sa svim mojim prijateljima