The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Adotolo adati kulankhula naye
Ngati ndikufuna kuchoka ku meds yanga
Koma sindinatchule ofesi yake
Adatsanulira botolo mu zinyalala
Ndimakhala munyumba iyi ndipo
Ndili ndi nkhawa ngati apolisi pano
Ndidayesa kuyimba, monga, anzanga onse
Ndipo palibe amene akuyankha
Kodi izi ndi nthawi yomwe sindingathe kuzilamulira?
Alibe chidwi, ndikuganiza kuti phwandolo latha
Sindimatha kugona usiku, ndipo ndimapitilirabe
Choyambitsa Khungu Langa Labwino Ndipo Paranoia
Adandikhumudwitsa, wodwala, ndipo ndizokwiyitsa kwambiri
Ndakhala ndikutaya, zimawoneka ngati mafuta
Koma ndidasankha kusiya, ndipo tsopano sindingapewe
Zinthu zoyenera kuchita ndi zosankha zovuta kwambiri
Kodi ino ndi nthawi yomwe ndimafuna wopereka?
Chiwindi kulephera kuchokera ku mowa kutsanulidwa
Chipinda chonse chikupindika, si rodka, koloko
Zomwe zikundipha ndikukhala wodekha
[Pre-anos]
Lankhulani za Masewera
Ozunguliridwa ndi makoma a njerwa
Izi ndi zomwe ana amayimba
Kuthamangitsidwa
[KOLOS]
Chochotsa nambala iliyonse pafoni yanga, ndikukhala kunyumba
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikadamwa ndi anzanga onse
Ndikumenya kapena sindingatero komanso bongo
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga onse
[Vesi 2]
Osasamala za Chithandizo cha Othandizira
Kuchita manyazi kwanga
Sizabwino kung'amba ndi izi
Kuyika kwa makolo anga kulowa
Ndikuwopa kukonza sikudzakonzanso
Kunyalanyaza Ufulu
Kuvala ndikuphwanya zolakwa zanga
Pafupifupi amayenera kundiikira
Kodi iyi ndi nthawi yomwe ndimatulutsa ndikuyambiranso?
Kutaya ndalama zanga zonse pa Rehab
Sindingatenge piritsi kuchokera kwa dokotala kuti mupumule
Kungotuluka mu mkwiyo nthawi iliyonse ndikamachita
Kumva ngati munthu wofooka, sindikufuna kukhala
Kukhala tsiku lililonse kuti musangalale kumapeto kwa sabata
Ndili kumapeto kwenikweni, kumenyana ndi ziwanda
Tryna Khalani oyera, ndikungofunikira chifukwa
Mafupa anga akugwedezeka ndi manja anga ndi mapazi anga
Ndikuwona nthiti yanga, koma sindingathe kudya
Ndimadzuka ndikuwonera, kotero sindingathe kugona
Ndimangokhala bafa ndikuyesera kupumira
[Pre-anos]
Lankhulani za Masewera
Ozunguliridwa ndi makoma a njerwa
Izi ndi zomwe ana amayimba
Kuthamangitsidwa
[KOLOS]
Chochotsa nambala iliyonse pafoni yanga, ndikukhala kunyumba
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikadamwa ndi anzanga onse
Ndikumenya kapena sindingatero komanso bongo
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga onse
[Mlatho]
Sindinamvepo izi zoyipa
Sindikudziwa ngati ndipanga
Osakhala ndi mphamvu kuti muchoke pansi pompano
Koma ndikuyembekeza ndikupemphera
Moyo wanga wonse ndimafuna zochulukirapo
Izi zitha kukhala mathero
Koma tsopano ndakhala ndikusangalala kwambiri, zatha tsopano
Ndinkakonda zomwe ndimadana nazo
[KOLOS]
Chochotsa nambala iliyonse pafoni yanga, ndikukhala kunyumba
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikadamwa ndi anzanga onse
Ndikumenya kapena sindingatero komanso bongo
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga onse
Chochotsa nambala iliyonse pafoni yanga, ndikukhala kunyumba
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikadamwa ndi anzanga onse
Ndikumenya kapena sindingatero komanso bongo
Ndikukhumba kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga onse