The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Die dokter het gesê om met hom te praat
As ek van my meds wou afkom
Maar ek het nooit sy kantoor in gebel nie
Giet die bottel in die vullisblik
Ek sit vas in hierdie woonstel en
Ek is angstig soos die polisie hier is
Ek het probeer om te bel, soos al my vriende
En nie een van hulle antwoord nie
Is dit die oomblik waar ek dit nie kan beheer nie?
Het geen eetlus nie, ek dink die partytjie is verby
Ek kan nie snags slaap nie, en ek bly oorval
Omdat my vel jeukerig is en die paranoia
Het my bekommerd geword, siek, en dit is so irriterend
Ek het opgegooi, dit lyk soos motorolie
Maar ek het gekies om op te hou, en nou kan ek dit nie vermy nie
Die regte dinge om te doen is die moeilikste keuses
Is dit die oomblik wanneer ek 'n skenker nodig het?
Lewer misluk van die drank wat giet
Al die kamer is besig om te draai, dit is nie vodka nie, soda
Wat my amper doodmaak, is nugter
[Pre-chorus]
Praat oor slaggate
Omring deur baksteenmure
Dit is wat kinders bel
Onttrekkings
[Koor]
Verwyder elke nommer van my selfoon, ek bly tuis
Ek wens regtig dat ek dronk was met al my vriende
Ek gaan dit klop of ek sal nie en oordosis nie
Ek wens regtig dat ek hoog was met al my vriende
[Vers 2]
Moet nooit omgee vir terapeut nie
My arrogansie verleentheid
Dit is nie regverdig om hiermee te skeur nie
Verslawing plaas my ouers in
Ek is bang herstel sal nooit regmaak nie
Die vrywillige nalatigheid
Die slytasie wat my foute gedoen het
Hulle moes my amper begrawe
Is dit die oomblik waar ek skroef en terugval?
Afval al my geld op rehab
Kan nie 'n pil van die dokter neem om te ontspan nie
Wimper in woede wanneer ek reageer
Voel soos 'n swak man, ek wil dit nie wees nie
Leef elke dag om die naweek 'n buzz te kry
Ek is in die diep einde, veg met demone
Tryna bly skoon, ek het net 'n rede nodig
My bene skud en my hande en voete
Ek sien my ribbekas, maar ek kan nie eet nie
Ek word steeds wakker en ek kan nie slaap nie
Ek sit net in die bad en probeer om asem te haal
[Pre-chorus]
Praat oor slaggate
Omring deur baksteenmure
Dit is wat kinders bel
Onttrekkings
[Koor]
Verwyder elke nommer van my selfoon, ek bly tuis
Ek wens regtig dat ek dronk was met al my vriende
Ek gaan dit klop of ek sal nie en oordosis nie
Ek wens regtig dat ek hoog was met al my vriende
[Brug]
Ek het nog nooit so sleg gevoel nie
Ek weet nie of ek dit sal maak nie
Moenie die krag hê om nou van die vloer af te kom nie
Maar ek hoop en bid
My hele lewe het ek meer wou hê
Dit kan die einde wees
Maar nou het ek te veel pret gehad, dit is nou verby
Ek het geliefd wat ek gehaat het
[Koor]
Verwyder elke nommer van my selfoon, ek bly tuis
Ek wens regtig dat ek dronk was met al my vriende
Ek gaan dit klop of ek sal nie en oordosis nie
Ek wens regtig dat ek hoog was met al my vriende
Verwyder elke nommer van my selfoon, ek bly tuis
Ek wens regtig dat ek dronk was met al my vriende
Ek gaan dit klop of ek sal nie en oordosis nie
Ek wens regtig dat ek hoog was met al my vriende