The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Daktari alisema kuzungumza naye
Ikiwa nilitaka kuondoka meds yangu
Lakini sikujaita ofisi yake
Akamwaga chupa katika uwezo wa takataka
Nimekwama katika nyumba hii na.
Nina wasiwasi kama wapiganaji hapa
Nilijaribu kupiga simu, kama, marafiki zangu wote
Na hakuna hata mmoja wao anayejibu
Je! Hii ndio wakati ambapo siwezi kuidhibiti?
Hakuwa na hamu ya kula, nadhani chama cha juu
Siwezi kulala usiku, na ninaendelea kuendelea
Sababu ngozi yangu ni itchy na paranoia.
Nilipata wasiwasi, wagonjwa, na ni hasira sana
Nimekuwa nikitupa, inaonekana kama mafuta ya mafuta
Lakini nilichagua kuacha, na sasa siwezi kuepuka
Mambo ya kufanya ni uchaguzi mgumu zaidi
Je! Hii ndio wakati ninapohitaji wafadhili?
Ini kushindwa kutoka kwa pombe
Chumba zote huzunguka, sio vodka, soda
Nini karibu kuniua ni kuwa na busara.
[Kabla ya chorus]
Ongea juu ya pigo
Kuzungukwa na kuta za matofali.
Huu ndio watoto wanaoita
Kuondolewa
[Chorus]
Ilifutwa kila namba kutoka simu yangu, ninaendelea nyumbani
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa mlevi na marafiki zangu wote
Mimi nitawapiga au siwezi na overdose.
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa na juu na marafiki zangu wote
[Mstari wa 2]
Kamwe usijali kwa mtaalamu
Kiburi changu cha aibu.
Sio haki ya kupasuka na hii.
Madawa ya Wazazi Wangu Katika
Ninaogopa ukarabati hautaweza kurekebisha
Ukosefu wa hiari
Kuvaa na kunyoosha makosa yangu
Wao karibu walipaswa kuzika mimi
Je! Hii ndio wakati ambapo mimi hupiga na kurudi tena?
Kupoteza fedha zangu zote kwa rehab.
Haiwezi kuchukua kidonge kutoka kwa daktari kupumzika
Lash nje kwa hasira wakati wowote nikifanya
Kujisikia kama mtu dhaifu, sitaki kuwa hivyo
Kuishi kila siku ili kupata buzz mwishoni mwa wiki
Mimi niko mwisho wa kina, kupigana na mapepo
Tryna kukaa safi, mimi tu inahitaji sababu
Mifupa yangu yanatetemeka na mikono na miguu yangu
Ninaona ngome yangu ya njaa, lakini siwezi kula
Bado ninaamka hofu, kwa hiyo siwezi kulala
Mimi tu kukaa katika bathtub na kujaribu kupumua
[Kabla ya chorus]
Ongea juu ya pigo
Kuzungukwa na kuta za matofali.
Huu ndio watoto wanaoita
Kuondolewa
[Chorus]
Ilifutwa kila namba kutoka simu yangu, ninaendelea nyumbani
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa mlevi na marafiki zangu wote
Mimi nitawapiga au siwezi na overdose.
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa na juu na marafiki zangu wote
[Daraja]
Sijawahi kujisikia hii mbaya kabla
Sijui kama nitaifanya
Usiwe na nguvu ya kuondoka kwenye sakafu sasa
Lakini nina matumaini na kuomba
Maisha yangu yote nilitaka zaidi
Hii inaweza kuwa mwisho.
Lakini sasa nimekuwa na furaha sana, ni juu ya sasa
Nilipenda kile nilichochukia
[Chorus]
Ilifutwa kila namba kutoka simu yangu, ninaendelea nyumbani
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa mlevi na marafiki zangu wote
Mimi nitawapiga au siwezi na overdose.
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa na juu na marafiki zangu wote
Ilifutwa kila namba kutoka simu yangu, ninaendelea nyumbani
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa mlevi na marafiki zangu wote
Mimi nitawapiga au siwezi na overdose.
Kweli unataka kwamba nilikuwa na juu na marafiki zangu wote