The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Doktor got ku bi wî re biaxive
Ger min dixwest ez ji Medsên xwe derkevim
Lê min qet gazî nivîsgeha wî kir
Şûşe di nav garisan de rijand
Ez di vê apartmanê de sekinîm û
Ez xeyal dikim mîna cops li vir in
Min hewl da ku bang bikim, mîna, hemî hevalên min
Û yek ji wan bersiv nedan
Ma ev dema ku ez nikarim wê kontrol bikim ev e?
HIYARIYN XWE, Ez texmîn dikim ku partî li ser
Ez nikarim şevê razêm, û ez li xwe geriyam
Sedema çermê min itchy û paranoia ye
Min xemgîn kir, nexweş, û ew pir aciz e
Ez avêtim, ew mîna rûnê motorê xuya dikir
Lê min hilbijart ku ez derkevim, û naha ez nikarim jê dûr nekim
Tiştên rast ên ku bikin hilbijartinên herî dijwar in
Ma dema ku ez hewceyê donor hewce dikim ev e?
Kezeb ji vexwarinê vedihewîne
Hemî jûre spinning, ew vodka, soda ne
Ya ku hema hema min dikuje hêşîn e
[Pêş-Chorus]
Li ser Pitfalls bipeyivin
Dorpêçkirî bi dîwarên brick
Ev e ku banga zarokan e
Vekişandin
[Qoro]
Her hejmar ji têlefona min jêbirin, ez li malê dimînim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re vexwar bûm
Ez ê wê bişkînim an ez ê û zêde zêde nekim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re bilind bûm
[Ayets 2]
Qet nebe ji bo terapîstan
Şermezarkirina arogana min
Ew ne rast e ku meriv bi vê yekê tirş bike
Addiction dêûbavên min li hundur bicîh bikin
Ez tamîrkirina tirsnak dê tu carî rast nekim
Negotîya dilxwazî
Theêwazên xwe çêdikir û tirsandin
Wan hema hema min neçar ma
Ma ev dema ku ez li ber xwe diêşim û paşve xistin?
Hemî dravê min li ser rehabîlîtasyonê winda bikin
Nekare pileyek ji bijîşk bigire da ku rihet bibe
Gava ku ez bertek nîşan bikim bi hêrs derkevim
Mîna mirovekî qels hîs bikin, ez naxwazim wê bibim
Her roj dijîn da ku çuçek di dawiya hefteyê de bistînin
Ez di dawiya kûr de me, bi cinan re şer dikim
Tryna paqij bimînin, ez tenê sedemek hewce dikim
Hestiyên min dihejandin û dest û lingên min in
Ez qefika xwe ya ribê dibînim, lê ez nikarim bixwim
Ez hîn jî panîk hişyar dikim, ji ber vê yekê ez nikarim razêm
Ez tenê li serşokê rûniştim û hewl didim ku bêhn bikim
[Pêş-Chorus]
Li ser Pitfalls bipeyivin
Dorpêçkirî bi dîwarên brick
Ev e ku banga zarokan e
Vekişandin
[Qoro]
Her hejmar ji têlefona min jêbirin, ez li malê dimînim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re vexwar bûm
Ez ê wê bişkînim an ez ê û zêde zêde nekim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re bilind bûm
[Pir]
Min berê vê xirabiya xwe nedikir
Ez nizanim ez ê wê bikim
Hêza we tune ku hûn ji qata rast derkevin
Lê ez hêvî û dua dikim
Tevahiya jiyana min min bêtir dixwest
Ev dibe ku dawiya be
Lê naha ez pir kêfxweş bûm, naha ew e
Min ji tiştê ku ez nefret kir hez kir
[Qoro]
Her hejmar ji têlefona min jêbirin, ez li malê dimînim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re vexwar bûm
Ez ê wê bişkînim an ez ê û zêde zêde nekim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re bilind bûm
Her hejmar ji têlefona min jêbirin, ez li malê dimînim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re vexwar bûm
Ez ê wê bişkînim an ez ê û zêde zêde nekim
Bi rastî dixwazim ku ez bi hemû hevalên xwe re bilind bûm