Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head
[Verse 1]
I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
So instead, I took my pen and started writing evidence
And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did
I said I'd talk to people 'bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors; razor blades
And different flavored pills I hit
Therefore, I'm at surely my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that
[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
[Post-Chorus]
And so far I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't
With instead filled with anxiety
Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be
[Verse 2]
Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back
To the times I would try and be the guy the people know
As always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids
On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots
Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn grey
I feel it coursing through my veins
I've said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried, you turned away
You straight-up lied right to my face
You fucked my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say
[Bridge]
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)
[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
[Post-Chorus]
And too bad I know I can't wake up because I lost my way
And you don't give a fuck about me, this could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh
[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
[Post-Chorus]
And you had known and played along
You were my home, I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me, effectively
Removed yourself outside my dreams
女孩，我希望你明白，我想握住你的手
但是我不能，那时想成为你的男人
而且你知道我爱你，但你只是一分钟伤了我的心
我很难过，生气，躺在床上
希望我能摆脱脑海中的所有声音
[第1节]
我正在打开一包未开发的药品
当我遇到了铅制成的子弹处方
当我在一个小时内在自己的汗水池中醒来时
我说：“我向上帝发誓，我再也不会尝试再睡觉了”
因此，我拿起笔，开始写证据
当我开始变得有意义时，我发现我已经达到了终点
哦，我不高兴，我没有朋友，你想打赌，你只是假装吗？
你只是一只宠物，限制在写作的文字中，你不是狗屎
我以为我停止了精神病的方式，我发誓我做了
我说我会和人们谈谈我过的有问题的生活
他们是我的邻居。剃刀片
和我打的不同调味药
因此，我肯定在我的最后一根稻草
我很高兴，过去陷入困境，我说
[合唱]
女孩，我希望你明白，我想握住你的手
但是我不能，那时想成为你的男人
[后核]]
到目前为止，我从未用我的手臂抱住你
所以很难成为你不是
而是充满焦虑
一直是我的一部分
[第2节]
有人因为不是我，我不习惯所有的说话
是一个内向的人，将感觉转化为写作
用于使用笔记和大量押韵来应对我所有问题
曾经希望每天晚上都会哭泣的日子更好
当我说我宁愿死也不愿回去时，我不是在撒谎
对于那个时候，我会尝试成为人们认识的人
一如既往地与藏在我眼皮后面的恶魔战斗
在一个充满暴力的岛上，我有两名飞行员
哦，太阳不发光，天空变成灰色
我觉得它在我的静脉
我已经说过，我不好
但是你还是不听
你知道我尝试过，你转身离开
你直接向我撒谎
你操我的生活，毁了我的一天
但是你不知道，所以我说
[桥]
没有什么可以填补这种沉默，没有人能像我一样爱
（你不知道，所以我说）
没人在乎，你撒谎，这不公平，你仍然否认
（所以我说）
没有什么可以填补这种沉默，没有人能像我一样爱
（你不知道，所以我说）
没人在乎，你撒谎，这不公平，你仍然否认
（所以我说）
[合唱]
女孩，我希望你明白，我想握住你的手
但是我不能，那时想成为你的男人
[后核]]
太糟糕了，我知道我无法醒来，因为我迷路了
而且你不给我他妈的，这可能是一个梦
我看不到你看到的东西，所以请，哦
[合唱]
女孩，我希望你明白，我想握住你的手
但是我不能，那时想成为你的男人
[后核]]
而且你知道并一起玩
你是我的家，我写了你的歌
现在你对我有效地死了
在我的梦想之外脱离了自己