Dear God, please
Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached
Out and said hello, I bet You're wondering
by Sanderlei Silveira - 12/04/2023 ∞ X
Dear God, please
Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached
Out and said hello, I bet You're wondering
Why I keep
Obsessing on and stressin' all the little things
When I should be
Living life and soaking up the memories
I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give You, it's true
Hanging by a thread's how I live
I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
[Chorus]
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
Go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Verse 2]
Yeah, been this way so long
It feels like somethin's off when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that I won't address
I got some baggage I ain't opened yet
I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls I been avoidin'
Some family members I don't really connect with
Some things I said I wish I woulda not let slip
Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips
Some bridges burned I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losin' hope, headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm
[Chorus]
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
Go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Bridge]
Don't know what's around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on livin' in—
[Chorus]
Livin' in my agony
Watchin' my self-esteem
Go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully
That that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Outro]
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy
Hurmatli Xudo, iltimos
Meni eshiting, men bu ikki yil bo'lganini bilaman
Men erishganimdan beri
Salom, salom, men siz qiziqayotganingizga aminman
Nega men saqlayman
Odatiy va stressni engillashtiradi
Qachon bo'lishim kerak
Yashash hayoti va xotiralarni namlash
Men xudbin bo'lganimni bilaman, menda bor
Sizga berish uchun uzr yo'q, bu haqiqat
Men qanday yashayotganim uchun osilgan
Nima uchun bilmayman, lekin men o'zimni qulay his qilaman
[Xor]
Livin 'mening azobimda
Huzurimni o'z-o'zimga bo'lganligim
Olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Rost bilan bilganimda
Bu men qanday qilib men uchun eng uzoq narsa
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va ya so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[2-oyat]
Ha, shu qadar uzoq bo'lgan
Men tushkun bo'lmaganimda, bir necha narsa kabi his qiladi
Men murojaat qilmaydigan ba'zi masalalarni oldim
Menda hali ochilmagan yuklarni oldim
Men dam olishim kerak bo'lgan jinlar oldim
Men unuta olmayman, degan jarohatlarim bor
Menda ba'zi telefon qo'ng'iroqlari bor edi, men qochib qoldim
Ba'zi oila a'zolari men aslida u bilan bog'lanmayman
Ba'zi narsalar, men slipga ruxsat bermadim demoqchi edim
Hech qachon liboslarimni tark etmaydigan ba'zi zararli so'zlar
Ba'zi bir ko'priklar meni qayta tiklashga tayyor emasman
Menda hech qanday ishonchsizlik, ha, ha
Men birinchi bo'lib yolg'iz jonman deb tan olaman
Va oxirgi qabul qilish menga ushlab turish uchun qo'li kerak
Losinning umidi, xavfli yo'lni pastga tushirdi
G'alati, men bilaman, lekin men o'zimni uyda eng ko'p his qilyapman
[Xor]
Livin 'mening azobimda
Huzurimni o'z-o'zimga bo'lganligim
Olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Rost bilan bilganimda
Bu men qanday qilib men uchun eng uzoq narsa
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va ya so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[Ko'prik]
Egilish atrofida nima borligini bilmayman
Mening kelajagim nima ekanligini bilmayman
Lekin men livinni davom ettira olmayman
[Xor]
Livin 'mening azobimda
Huzurimni o'z-o'zimga bo'lganligim
Olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Rost bilan bilganimda
Bu men qanday qilib men uchun eng uzoq narsa
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va ya so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[Ortiqcha]
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh) agar men baxtli bo'lsam
(Oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh) agar men baxtli bo'lsam