Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
嘿！自从您看到我的脸以来已经有一段时间了
我没做这么好
所以我休息一下
很多人在说关于我的一些事情，这些事情并不十分真的
不管是真的
只要对您娱乐，对吗？
你们玩得开心吗？
[合唱]
全部在有毒的八卦火车上
沿着错误信息的轨道弄清楚
有毒的八卦火车
您有一张单程通往操纵站的票
有毒的八卦火车
将我绑在轨道上，骚扰我过去
如果您不介意差距，这些谣言看起来像事实
我不会在坠机中生存，但是
至少你很有趣
[说]
嗯，嗨，大家
我一直想上网与您谈谈一些事情
嗯，即使我的团队强烈建议我不要说我想说的话
我最近意识到他们从来没有说过我不能唱我想说的话，所以
我在这里，嗯，今天我只想谈论事实
所以，我希望你愿意听
开始了
很多年前，我曾经给粉丝们发消息
呃，但不是像你们中很多人试图建议的那样令人毛骨悚然
这更多是一种失败者
我只是想和所有人成为善良的地方
有点像，当您喜欢家庭聚会时，您知道吗？
那里有一个怪异的姨妈，他不断地向你走来，就像“嘿，女孩，什么是茶！”
你就像“ ehhh”
嗯，那是我，但是在与粉丝的小组聊天中，这很奇怪
[第1节]
我已经在线分享了15年以上
我向你倾心，因此我感到
就像我在和朋友聊天一样，但是，在我职业生涯的开始
我真的不明白，也许那里应该有一些界限
在DMS中有些时候我会淹没
我一生的细节，这真的很奇怪
我已经有多年了，你知道
因为我改变了行为，我接受了责任感
[说]
但这不是很有趣吗？
[合唱]
因此，让我们去有毒的八卦火车
机车以仇恨的指控加剧了
有毒的八卦火车
浪费某人的声誉
有毒的八卦火车
跳上船，但请闭上眼睛，否则您会意识到
火车是用谎言制成的，你鄙视的那个人
也许不应该死
但是，嘿，至少你很有趣
[说]
认真地说，我确实认为让人们对自己的错误负责很重要
嗯，知道，我们应该希望每个人都可以从错误中学习
并成长，改变他们的行为，成为一个更好的人
这是我犯错误时一直试图做的事情
我将继续尝试T-什么？
哦，你不在乎吗？哦好的
[第2节]
我以为你要我承担责任
但这不是您暴民心态的重点，是吗？不
您的目标是破坏您鄙视的人的生活
当您戏剧化自己的谎言并货币化时，他们的灭亡
[说]
是的，嗯，我觉得我已经可以听到此视频中的评论
她在燃气，操纵！
gh，她是自恋者和老鼠！
我永远不会犯这样的错误。
[第3节]
哦，对不起，我没有意识到
你们所有人都是完美的，所以请批评我
带出您完美的过去制造的匕首
并反复刺我在我的骨头小背上
我敢肯定你对我肮脏的小歌感到失望
我知道你要我说我是100％错误的
好吧，对不起，我不会走那条路
承认您弥补了影响力的谎言和谣言
[第4节]
大家好，我找到一个新的骚扰
她做了一些我不喜欢的事情，在她的过去
所以每个人，聚集“圆”，因为我们将要进攻
但不是基于事实，哦，不
您的致命武器是钥匙上的手指
当您可以藏在屏幕后面时，您不需要任何装甲
因此，用点击射击，快速地将我射击，然后bam
我的声誉已故
[说]
嗯，我也想花一点时间谈论那个女孩，米兰达唱歌
你知道那个，是的
嗯，她是PG-13，它说在我的网站上
[第5节]
而且一直这样
这就是为什么您不会在YouTube儿童应用程序上找到我的视频
无论如何，嗯，我没有意识到这是我的责任
确定每个孩子都可以看到什么
我一直依靠父母决定他们是否舒适
他们的家人观看我的YouTube视频或参加我的现场表演
现在，我的味道很差吗？是的
我犯了很多愚蠢的错误吗？是的
我很伤心有些粉丝感到被背叛吗？是的
但是我打算操纵吗？不
[说]
我的意图是什么都没关系
因为似乎每个人都已经决定了
让我告诉你，世界各地有数百万人并不是很有趣
称您为最卑鄙，可怕，令人恶心，持久生活的话语
我认为可以打电话给一个人
嗯，这些事情不是真的
嗯，每个人都认为您是操纵和虐待孩子的人
所以，我只是想这么说，嗯
我曾经修饰过的唯一一件事是我的两只波斯猫
我不是美容师，我只是一个失败者
[第6节]
谁不明白我不应该回应粉丝
即使你们很多人都这么认为，我也不是捕食者
因为五年前，我开了个笑话
因此，即使我知道这段视频不会改变任何人对我的想法
我仍然觉得重要的是要来这里捍卫自己
并承担责任
我也想说
给任何曾经以任何身份支持我的人
[说]
我真的非常感谢你，谢谢
对于它的价值，我从来没有任何不良意图
但是我确实觉得很烂
[合唱]
有毒的八卦火车
沿着错误信息的轨道弄清楚
有毒的八卦火车
您有一张通往操纵站的票
有毒的八卦火车
你把我绑在轨道上，骚扰我过去
当您不介意差距时，谣言看起来像事实
我不会在坠机中生存，但是
希望你玩得开心
[说]
实际上，知道，我觉得也许我应该让你们知道一些事情，嗯
似乎，也许您对某事感到困惑？我不知道
让我尝试帮助，嗯
[outro]
有时人们会犯错，这不会使他们成为一个可怕的人，哇
有时人们会犯错，他们仍然是一个好人
疯狂，我知道
有时人们会犯一个错误，而您不必犯这个错误，哦，不
并扭动它，磨碎，并在其中添加一些谎言，然后粉碎
用刀刺，毁了生命，哦，不
有时人们会犯错，这并不意味着您必须将他们发送仇恨，哦，不
有时人们会犯错，您可以让他们知道，并帮助他们成长
有时人们会犯错，仅仅是因为他们犯了一个错误？
这个错误并不会使他们成为一个可怕的人
它只是使他们成为人类
[说]
但是我知道什么？
操我，对吧？