Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
Hej! Prošlo je neko vrijeme otkako ste vidjeli moje lice
Nisam tako sjajno
Pa sam se malo odmorio
Mnogi ljudi govore neke stvari o meni koje nisu sasvim istinite
Nije važno je li to istina
Sve dok vam je zabavno, zar ne?
Vi se zabavljate?
[Zbor]
Svi na brodu otrovni tračevi
Spuštajući tragove dezinformacija
Toksični tračevi vlak
Dobili ste jednosmjernu kartu za manipulacijsku stanicu
Toksični tračevi vlak
Vežite me za staze i maltretiraju me za svoju prošlost
Te glasine izgledaju kao činjenice ako vam ne smeta nedostaci
Neću preživjeti u sudaru, ali hej
Barem si zabavna
[Govorni]
Uh, bok, svi
Želio sam doći na mrežu i razgovarati s vama o nekoliko stvari
Hm, iako me je moj tim snažno savjetovao da ne kažem ono što želim reći
Nedavno sam shvatio da nikad nisu rekli da ne mogu otpjevati ono što želim reći, pa
Evo me i, hm, danas samo želim razgovarati o činjenicama
Dakle, nadam se da ćete biti voljni slušati
Idemo
Prije mnogo godina poslao sam svoje obožavatelje
Uh, ali ne na jeziv način kao što mnogi od vas pokušavaju sugerirati
To je bio više gubitnik
Tamo gdje sam samo pokušavao biti dobro sa svima
Bilo je to nekako, uh, kad idete na obiteljsko okupljanje, znate?
A tamo je čudna tetka koja te stalno dolazi do tebe i ide poput "Hej, djevojko, kakav je čaj!"
A ti si poput "ehhh"
Hm, to sam bio ja, ali u grupnim razgovorima s mojim obožavateljima bilo je čudno
[Stih 1]
Dijelim svoj život na mreži više od 15 godina
Izlio sam svoje srce tebi i zbog toga osjećam
Kao da razgovaram sa svojim prijateljima, ali, na početku karijere
Nisam zapravo razumio da bi tamo možda trebalo biti nekih granica
Bilo je vremena u DMS -u kad bih se prespavao
Pojedinosti o mom životu, što je bilo stvarno čudno od mene
To nisam radio godinama, vidite
Jer sam promijenio svoje ponašanje i uzeo sam odgovornost
[Govorni]
Ali to nije baš zanimljivo, zar ne?
[Zbor]
Pa idemo na otrovni tračevi
Lokomotiva je podstana mržnje od optužbi
Toksični tračevi vlak
Pare preko nečije reputacije
Toksični tračevi vlak
Skočite na brod, ali zatvorite oči, inače ćete shvatiti
Da je vlak napravljen od laži i one osobe koju prezirete
Možda nisam zaslužio umrijeti
Ali hej, barem si se zabavljao
[Govorni]
Ozbiljno, mislim da je zaista važno smatrati ljudima odgovorne za njihove pogreške
Hm, znate, trebali bismo se nadati da će svi moći naučiti iz svojih pogrešaka
I rasti i mijenjaju svoje ponašanje i budite bolja osoba
To je nešto što sam oduvijek pokušavao učiniti kad pogriješim
I je li nešto što ću i dalje pokušavati t- Što?
Oh, nije te briga? Oh u redu
[Stih 2]
Mislila sam da želiš da preuzmem odgovornost
Ali to nije poanta vašeg mentaliteta mafije, zar ne? Ne
Vaš je cilj upropastiti život osobe koju prezirete
Dok dramatizirate svoje laži i unovčite njihovu smrt
[Govorni]
Da, hm, osjećam se kao da već mogu čuti komentare na ovom videu
Ona gasi, manipulira!
Uh, ona je narcisi i štakor!
Nikad ne bih pogriješio.
[Stih 3]
Oh, žao mi je što nisam shvatio
Da ste svi savršeni, pa molim, kritizirajte me
Izvadite bodeže napravljene od vaše savršene prošlosti
I ubodi me više puta u malu košanu leđa
Siguran sam da ste razočarani u mojoj usrano malo pjesme
Znam da ste htjeli da kažem da sam 100% u krivu
Pa, žao mi je, neću krenuti tom rutom
Priznanja laži i glasina da ste nadoknadili Clout
[Stih 4]
Hej svima, našao sam nekoga novog u maltretiranju
Napravila je neke stvari koje mi se ne sviđaju, u njezinoj prošlosti
Dakle, svi, okupite 'krug, jer ćemo napasti
Ali ne na temelju činjenica, oh ne
Vaše napunjeno smrtonosno oružje su vam prsti na ključevima
Ne treba vam oklop kad se možete sakriti iza zaslona
Dakle, pucajte me, brzo, klikom i bam
Moj ugled je preminuo
[Govorni]
Uh, također sam htjela uzeti minutu da razgovaram o toj djevojci, Miranda pjeva
Znate onu, da ona
Uh, ona je PG-13, piše da na mojoj web stranici
[Stih 5]
I uvijek je bilo tako
I zato nećete pronaći moje videozapise na YouTube Kids App
U svakom slučaju, hm, nisam shvatio da je to moja odgovornost
Odlučiti što je prikladno za svako dijete
Oduvijek sam se oslanjao na roditelje kako bi odlučili jesu li ugodni
S njihovim obiteljima koje su gledale moje videozapise na YouTubeu ili dolazak na moje emisije uživo
Jesam li se šalio po lošem ukusu? Da
Jesam li napravio puno glupih pogrešaka? Da
Jesam li tužan što postoje neki obožavatelji koji se osjećaju izdano? Da
Ali bila mi je namjera manipulirati? Ne
[Govorni]
Nije zapravo važno koja mi je bila namjera
Jer se čini kao da su se svi već odlučili za to
Dopustite mi da vam kažem, nije baš zabavno imati milijune ljudi širom svijeta
Nazovite vas najglupljim, strašnim, odvratnim, životnim riječima
Da se osoba može pozvati, po mom mišljenju
Hm, nije važno da te stvari nisu istinite
Uh, svi samo vjeruju da ste tip osobe koja manipulira i zlostavlja djecu
Dakle, samo sam htio to reći, hm
Jedino što sam ikad dočekao su moje dvije perzijske mačke
Nisam mladoj, samo sam gubitnik
[Stih 6]
Koji nisu razumjeli da ne bih trebao reagirati na fanove
I nisam grabežljivac iako puno vas misli
Jer prije 5 godina napravio sam prljavu šalu
Dakle, iako znam da se ovaj video nikoga neće predomisliti o meni
Još uvijek sam osjećao da je važno doći ovamo i malo se braniti
I uzmi odgovornost
A to sam i želio reći
Svima koji su me ikada podržali u bilo kojem svojstvu
[Govorni]
Stvarno, stvarno te cijenim, hvala
Za ono što vrijedi, nikad nisam imao loše namjere
Ali osjećam se kao sranje
[Zbor]
Toksični tračevi vlak
Spuštajući tragove dezinformacija
Toksični tračevi vlak
Dobili ste jednosmjernu kartu za manipulacijsku stanicu
Toksični tračevi vlak
Vezao si me za staze i maltretirao za svoju prošlost
Glasine izgledaju kao činjenice kad vam ne smeta nedostaci
Neću preživjeti u sudaru, ali hej
Nadam se da ste se zabavili
[Govorni]
Zapravo, znate, osjećam se kao da bih vam možda trebao reći da nešto znaš, hm
Čini se da ste možda zbunjeni zbog nečega? Ne znam
Dopustite mi da pokušam pomoći, hm
[Outro]
Ponekad ljudi pogriješe i to ih ne čini groznom osobom, whoa
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti i još uvijek su dobra osoba
Ludo, znam
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti i ne morate pogriješiti, oh ne
I uvrnite ga i mljejte, i dodajte mu neke laži i puhajte ga
I zabiti ga noževima i uništiti život, i, oh ne
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti, to ne znači da im morate poslati mržnju, oh ne
Ponekad ljudi mogu pogriješiti, a vi ih možete obavijestiti i pomoći im da rastu
Ponekad ljudi pogriješe, jednostavno zato što su pogriješili?
I ta ih pogreška ne čini strašnim čovjekom
Jednostavno ih čini čovjekom
[Govorni]
Ali što znam?
Jebi me, zar ne?