Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Sanderlei Silveira - 30/06/2023 - BR X
Hey! It's been a while since you saw my face
I haven't been doing so great
So I took a little break
A lot of people are saying some things about me that aren't quite true
Doesn't matter if it's true, though
Just as long as it's entertaining to you, right?
You guys having fun?
[Chorus]
All aboard the toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
The toxic gossip train
You got a one-way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
Tie me to the tracks and harass me for my past
Those rumors look like facts if you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
At least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
Uh, hi, everyone
I've been wanting to come online and talk to you about a few things
Um, even though my team has strongly advised me to not say what I want to say
I recently realized that they never said that I couldn't sing what I wanna say, so
Here I am, and, um, today I only wanna talk about the facts
So, I hope that you'll be willing to listen
Here we go
Many years ago, I used to message my fans
Uh, but not in a creepy way like a lot of you are trying to suggest
It was more of a loser kind of way
Where I was just trying to be besties with everybody
It was kinda like, uh, when you go to like a family gathering, you know?
And there's a weird aunt there who keeps coming up to you and going like "Hey, girl, what's the tea!"
And you're like "Ehhh"
Um, that was me, but in group chats with my fans, it was weird
[Verse 1]
I've been sharing my life online for over 15 years
I've poured my heart out to you and because of that I feel
Like I'm talking to my friends, but, in the beginning of my career
I didn't really understand that maybe there should be some boundaries there
There were times in the DMs when I would overshare
Details of my life, which was really weird of me
I haven't done that for years, you see
Because I changed my behavior, and I took accountability
[Spoken]
But that's not very interesting, is it?
[Chorus]
So let's go on the toxic gossip train
The locomotive's fueled with hateful accusations
The toxic gossip train
Steamroll over someone's reputation
Toxic gossip train
Hop on board, but close your eyes, otherwise you'll realize
That the train is made of lies and that person you despise
Maybe didn't deserve to die
But hey, at least you're havin' fun
[Spoken]
In all seriousness, I do think it's really important to hold people accountable for their mistakes
Um, y'know, we should hope that everyone can learn from their mistakes
And grow, and change their behavior, and be a better person
This is something that I've always tried to do when I make mistakes
And is something that I will continue to try t- what?
Oh, you don't care? Oh, okay
[Verse 2]
I thought you wanted me to take accountability
But that's not the point of your mob mentality, is it? No
Your goal is to ruin the life of the person you despise
While you dramatize your lies and monetize their demise
[Spoken]
Yeah, um, I feel like I can already hear the comments on this video
She's gaslighting, manipulating!
Ugh, she's a narcissist and a rat!
I would never make a mistake like that.
[Verse 3]
Oh, I'm sorry I didn't realize
That all of you are perfect, so please, criticize me
Bring out the daggers made from your perfect past
And stab me repeatedly in my bony little back
I'm sure you're disappointed in my shitty little song
I know that you wanted me to say that I was 100% in the wrong
Well, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna take that route
Of admitting to lies and rumors that you made up for clout
[Verse 4]
Hey everybody, I found someone new to harass
She did some things that I do not like, in her past
So everybody, gather 'round, 'cause we're about to attack
But not based on facts, oh no
Your loaded lethal weapon is your fingers on the keys
You don't need any armor when you can hide behind a screen
So, shoot me down, quick, with a click, and bam
My reputation's deceased
[Spoken]
Uh, I also wanted to take a minute to talk about that girl, Miranda Sings
You know the one, yeah her
Uh, she's PG-13, it says that on my website
[Verse 5]
And it's always been that way
And that's why you won't find my videos on the YouTube Kids app
Anyway, um, I didn't realize it was my responsibility
To decide what was appropriate for every kid to see
I've always relied on parents to decide if they're comfortable
With their families watching my YouTube videos or coming to my live shows
Now, have I made some jokes in poor taste? Yes
Have I made lots of dumb mistakes? Yes
Am I sad that there's some fans that feel betrayed? Yes
But was my intention to manipulate? No
[Spoken]
It doesn't really matter what my intention was
Cause it seems as though everyone's already decided on that
Let me tell you, it's not very fun to have millions of people all over the world
Call you the most vile, horrendous, disgusting, life-ruining words
That a person can be called, in my opinion
Um, it doesn't matter that these things aren't true
Uh, everyone just believes that you are the type of person who manipulates and abuses children
So, I just wanted to say that, um
The only thing that I've ever groomed is my two Persian cats
I'm not a groomer, I'm just a loser
[Verse 6]
Who didn't understand I shouldn't respond to fans
And I'm not a predator even though a lot of you think so
Because 5 years ago, I made a fart joke
So, even though I know this video won't change anyone's mind about me
I still felt it was important to come on here and defend myself a little
And take accountability
And I also wanted to say that
To anyone out there who has ever supported me in any capacity
[Spoken]
I really, really appreciate you, thank you
For what it's worth, I never had any bad intentions
But I do feel like shit
[Chorus]
The toxic gossip train
Chugging down the tracks of misinformation
Toxic gossip train
You got a one way ticket to manipulation station
Toxic gossip train
You tied me to the tracks and harassed me for my past
Rumors look like facts when you don't mind the gaps
I won't survive in the crash, but hey
Hope you had some fun
[Spoken]
Actually, y'know, I feel like maybe I should let you guys know something, um
Seems like, maybe you're confused about something? I don't know
Let me try to help, um
[Outro]
Sometimes people make a mistake and it doesn't make them a horrible person, whoa
Sometimes people can make a mistake and they're still a good person
Crazy, I know
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you don't have to take that mistake, oh no
And twist it up, and grind it, and add some lies to it, and pulverize it
And stab it with knives, and ruin a life, and, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake, it doesn't mean you gotta send them hate, oh no
Sometimes people can make a mistake and you can kindly let them know, and help them to grow
Sometimes people make mistakes, simply because they made a mistake?
And that mistake doesn't make them a terrible human
It just makes them a human
[Spoken]
But what do I know?
Fuck me, right?
Hej! Det er et stykke tid siden du så mit ansigt
Jeg har ikke gjort det så godt
Så jeg tog en lille pause
Mange mennesker siger nogle ting om mig, der ikke er helt sande
Det betyder dog ikke noget, om det er sandt
Lige så længe det er underholdende for dig, ikke?
Har du det sjovt?
[Kor]
Alle ombord på det giftige sladdertog
Chugging ned ad sporene med forkert information
Det giftige sladdertog
Du har en envejsbillet til manipulationsstation
Toksisk sladdertog
Binde mig til sporene og chikanere mig for min fortid
Disse rygter ligner fakta, hvis du ikke har noget imod hullerne
Jeg overlever ikke i styrtet, men hej
I det mindste har du det sjovt
[Talt]
Åh, hej alle sammen
Jeg har ønsket at komme online og tale med dig om et par ting
Um, selvom mit team stærkt har rådet mig til ikke at sige, hvad jeg vil sige
Jeg indså for nylig, at de aldrig sagde, at jeg ikke kunne synge, hvad jeg vil sige, så
Her er jeg, og um, i dag vil jeg kun tale om fakta
Så jeg håber, at du vil være villig til at lytte
Nu sker det
For mange år siden plejede jeg at sende besked til mine fans
Åh, men ikke på en uhyggelig måde som mange af jer prøver at foreslå
Det var mere en taber slags måde
Hvor jeg bare prøvede at være besties med alle
Det var ligesom, åh, når du går til en familiesamling, ved du?
Og der er en underlig tante der, der fortsætter med at komme op til dig og går som "Hej pige, hvad er te!"
Og du er som "ehhh"
Um, det var mig, men i gruppechats med mine fans var det underligt
[Vers 1]
Jeg har delt mit liv online i over 15 år
Jeg har hældt mit hjerte ud for dig, og på grund af det føler jeg
Som om jeg taler med mine venner, men i begyndelsen af min karriere
Jeg forstod ikke rigtig, at der måske skulle være nogle grænser der
Der var tidspunkter i DMS, hvor jeg ville overskyde
Detaljer om mit liv, som var virkelig underligt af mig
Jeg har ikke gjort det i årevis, ser du
Fordi jeg ændrede min opførsel, og jeg tog ansvarlighed
[Talt]
Men det er ikke særlig interessant, er det?
[Kor]
Så lad os gå på det giftige sladdertog
Lokomotivet er brændt med hadefulde beskyldninger
Det giftige sladdertog
Steamroll over nogens omdømme
Toksisk sladdertog
Hop om bord, men luk øjnene, ellers er du klar over det
At toget er lavet af løgne og den person, du foragter
Måske fortjente det ikke at dø
Men hej, i det mindste har du det sjovt
[Talt]
I al alvor synes jeg det er virkelig vigtigt at holde folk ansvarlige for deres fejltagelser
Um, ved du, vi skal håbe, at alle kan lære af deres fejltagelser
Og vokse og ændre deres opførsel og være et bedre menneske
Dette er noget, jeg altid har prøvet at gøre, når jeg laver fejl
Og er noget, som jeg vil fortsætte med at prøve T- Hvad?
Åh, er du ligeglad? Åh okay
[Vers 2]
Jeg troede, du ville have mig til at tage ansvarlighed
Men det er ikke poenget med din pøbelmentalitet, er det? Ingen
Dit mål er at ødelægge livet for den person, du foragter
Mens du dramatiserer dine løgne og tjener penge på deres død
[Talt]
Ja, um, jeg føler, at jeg allerede kan høre kommentarerne til denne video
Hun er gaslysende, manipulerer!
Ugh, hun er en narcissist og en rotte!
Jeg ville aldrig begå en sådan fejl.
[Vers 3]
Åh, jeg er ked af, at jeg ikke var klar over det
At alle jer er perfekte, så vær venlig at kritisere mig
Bring de dolk ud af din perfekte fortid
Og stikke mig gentagne gange i min benede lille tilbage
Jeg er sikker på, at du er skuffet over min shitty lille sang
Jeg ved, at du ville have mig til at sige, at jeg var 100% i forkert
Jeg er ked af det, jeg tager ikke den rute
At indrømme løgne og rygter om, at du kompenserede for at komme i gang
[Vers 4]
Hej alle sammen, jeg fandt nogen ny til at chikanere
Hun gjorde nogle ting, som jeg ikke kan lide, i hendes fortid
Så alle sammen, samler 'runde', fordi vi er ved at angribe
Men ikke baseret på fakta, åh nej
Dit belastede dødbringende våben er dine fingre på nøglerne
Du har ikke brug for nogen rustning, når du kan gemme dig bag en skærm
Så skyder mig ned, hurtigt, med et klik og bam
Mit omdømme er afdøde
[Talt]
Øh, jeg ville også tage et minut at tale om den pige, Miranda synger
Du kender den, ja hende
Uh, hun er PG-13, det siger, at på min hjemmeside
[Vers 5]
Og det har altid været sådan
Og det er derfor, du ikke finder mine videoer på YouTube Kids -appen
Alligevel, um, jeg var ikke klar over, at det var mit ansvar
At beslutte, hvad der var passende for hvert barn at se
Jeg har altid været afhængig af forældrene til at beslutte, om de har det godt
Når deres familier ser mine YouTube -videoer eller kommer til mine live shows
Har jeg nu lavet nogle vittigheder i dårlig smag? Ja
Har jeg lavet masser af stumme fejl? Ja
Er jeg ked af, at der er nogle fans, der føler sig forrådt? Ja
Men var min intention om at manipulere? Ingen
[Talt]
Det betyder ikke rigtig noget, hvad min intention var
For det ser ud til, at alle allerede er besluttet på det
Lad mig fortælle dig, det er ikke meget sjovt at have millioner af mennesker over hele verden
Kald dig de mest svage, forfærdelige, modbydelige, livskullende ord
At en person kan kaldes efter min mening
Um, det betyder ikke noget, at disse ting ikke er sandt
Øh, alle mener bare, at du er den type person, der manipulerer og misbruger børn
Så jeg ville bare sige det, um
Det eneste, jeg nogensinde har plejet, er mine to persiske katte
Jeg er ikke en groomer, jeg er bare en taber
[Vers 6]
Hvem forstod ikke, at jeg ikke skulle svare på fans
Og jeg er ikke et rovdyr, selvom mange af jer tror det
Fordi 5 år siden, lavede jeg en fart -vittighed
Så selvom jeg ved, at denne video ikke ændrer nogen om mig
Jeg følte stadig, at det var vigtigt at komme her og forsvare mig lidt
Og tage ansvarlighed
Og det ville jeg også sige
Til alle derude, der nogensinde har støttet mig i enhver egenskab
[Talt]
Jeg værdsætter virkelig dig, tak
For hvad det er værd, har jeg aldrig haft nogen dårlige intentioner
Men jeg har lyst til lort
[Kor]
Det giftige sladdertog
Chugging ned ad sporene med forkert information
Toksisk sladdertog
Du har en envejsbillet til manipulationsstation
Toksisk sladdertog
Du bundede mig til sporene og chikanerede mig for min fortid
Rygter ligner fakta, når du ikke har noget imod hullerne
Jeg overlever ikke i styrtet, men hej
Håber du havde det sjovt
[Talt]
Faktisk ved du, jeg har lyst til, at jeg måske skulle fortælle jer noget, um
Det ser ud til, måske er du forvirret over noget? Jeg ved ikke
Lad mig prøve at hjælpe, um
[Outro]
Nogle gange begår folk en fejl, og det gør dem ikke til en frygtelig person, hvem
Nogle gange kan folk begå en fejl, og de er stadig en god person
Skør, jeg ved det
Nogle gange kan folk begå en fejl, og du behøver ikke tage den fejl, åh nej
Og drej det op, og slib det, og tilføj nogle løgne til det, og pulveriser det
Og stikker det med knive og ødelægger et liv, og åh nej
Nogle gange kan folk begå en fejl, det betyder ikke, at du skal sende dem had, åh nej
Nogle gange kan folk begå en fejl, og du kan venligst fortælle dem det og hjælpe dem med at vokse
Nogle gange begår folk fejl, simpelthen fordi de begik en fejl?
Og den fejl gør dem ikke til et forfærdeligt menneske
Det gør dem bare til et menneske
[Talt]
Men hvad ved jeg?
Fuck mig, ikke?