The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Zdravnik je rekel, da se z njim pogovori
Če bi hotel priti z MEDS
Ampak nikoli nisem poklical njegovo pisarno
Izlili steklenico v smeti
Obtičal sem v tem apartmaju in
Zaskrbljen sem, da so policaji tukaj
Poskušal sem poklicati, kot, vsi moji prijatelji
In nihče od njih ne odgovarja
Je to trenutek, ko ga ne morem nadzorovati?
Nimam apetita, mislim, da je zabava končana
Ne morem spati ponoči in se držim
Ker je moja koža srbeča in paranoja
Me je zaskrbljen, bolan, in to je tako nadležno
Vrgel sem, izgledal je kot motorično olje
Vendar sem se odločil zapustiti, zdaj pa se ne morem izogniti
Desne stvari, ki jih je treba storiti, so najtežje odločitve
Je to trenutek, ko potrebujem darovalca?
Jetra, ki izhaja iz likvirja
Vsa soba se vrti, ni vodka, soda
Kaj me skoraj ubija, je trezen
[Pre-Chorus]
Pogovorite se o pastem
Obdan z opečnimi stenami
To je tisto, kar otroci kličejo
Umik
[Refren]
Izbrisal vsako številko iz telefona, ostanem doma
Res si želim, da sem pijan z vsemi prijatelji
Premagal ga bom ali ne bom in prevelik odmerjal
Res si želim, da sem visoka z vsemi prijatelji
[Verz 2]
Nikoli ne skrbite za terapevt
Moja aroganca je neprijetno
S tem ni pošteno
Odvisnost od mojih staršev
Jaz sem prestrašen popravilo ne bo nikoli popravil
Prostovoljne malomarnosti
Obraba in raztrgala moje napake
Skoraj so me morali pokopati
Je to trenutek, ko zavarujem in ponovim?
Odpakirajte ves moj denar na rehabilitu
Ne morem vzeti tabletke od zdravnika, da se sprostite
Ko se odzivam na jezo
Počutim se kot šibek človek, ne želim biti
Živeti vsak dan, da bi dobili buzz na vikend
Jaz sem v globokem koncu, boj z demoni
Tryna ostane čista, resnično potrebujem razlog
Moje kosti se tresejo in moje roke in noge
Vidim mojo rebro, vendar ne morem jesti
Še vedno se zbudim paniča, da ne morem spati
Samo sedim v kopalni kadi in poskusim dihati
[Pre-Chorus]
Pogovorite se o pastem
Obdan z opečnimi stenami
To je tisto, kar otroci kličejo
Umik
[Refren]
Izbrisal vsako številko iz telefona, ostanem doma
Res si želim, da sem pijan z vsemi prijatelji
Premagal ga bom ali ne bom in prevelik odmerjal
Res si želim, da sem visoka z vsemi prijatelji
[Bridge]
Nikoli prej nisem čutil tega slabega
Ne vem, če bom naredil
Nimate moči, da bi se zdaj odpravili na tla
Ampak upam in molim
Moje življenje sem hotel več
To je lahko konec
Ampak zdaj sem imel preveč zabave, zdaj je konec
Všeč mi je, kar sem sovražil
[Refren]
Izbrisal vsako številko iz telefona, ostanem doma
Res si želim, da sem pijan z vsemi prijatelji
Premagal ga bom ali ne bom in prevelik odmerjal
Res si želim, da sem visoka z vsemi prijatelji
Izbrisal vsako številko iz telefona, ostanem doma
Res si želim, da sem pijan z vsemi prijatelji
Premagal ga bom ali ne bom in prevelik odmerjal
Res si želim, da sem visoka z vsemi prijatelji