The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
The doctor said to talk to him
If I wanted to get off my meds
But I never called his office in
Poured the bottle in the garbage can
I'm stuck in this apartment and
I'm anxious like the cops are here
I tried to call, like, all my friends
And none of them are answering
Is this the moment where I can't control it?
Got no appetite, I guess the party's over
I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over
Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia
Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying
I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil
But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it
The right things to do are the hardest choices
Is this the moment when I need a donor?
Liver failing from the liquor pouring
All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda
What is almost killing me is being sober
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Verse 2]
Never care for therapist
My arrogance embarrassing
It isn't fair to tear with this
Addiction place my parents in
I'm scared repair will never fix
The voluntary negligence
The wear and tear my errors did
They almost had to bury me
Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse?
Waste all my money on rehab
Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax
Lash out in anger whenever I react
Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that
Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend
I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons
Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason
My bones are shaking and my hands and feet
I see my rib cage, but I can't eat
I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep
I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk about pitfalls
Surrounded by brick walls
This is what kids call
Withdrawals
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
[Bridge]
I've never felt this bad before
I don't know if I'll make it
Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now
But I'm hoping and praying
My whole life I wanted more
This might be the end
But now I've had too much fun, it's over now
I loved what I hated
[Chorus]
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home
Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends
I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose
Really wish that I was high with all my friends
Udokotela wathi ukukhuluma naye
Ukube bengifuna ukucisha ama-med ami
Kepha angikaze ngishayele isikhundla sakhe
Wathela ibhodlela emgqonyeni kadoti
Nginamathele kuleli gulu futhi
Ngikhathazekile njengamaphoyisa lapha
Ngizamile ukufona, nje, bonke abangane bami
Futhi akekho noyedwa kubo ophendula
Ngabe lesi umzuzu lapho angikwazi ukukulawula?
Awunaso isifiso sokudla, ngicabanga ukuthi iqembu liphelile
Angikwazi ukulala ebusuku, futhi ngilokhu ngiqhubeka
Yenza isikhumba sami sihleke ne-paranoia
Ngikhathazekile, ngigula, futhi kuyacasula kakhulu
Bengilokhu ngiphonsa phezulu, kwakubukeka njengamafutha ezimoto
Kepha ngakhetha ukuyeka, futhi manje angikwazi ukukugwema
Izinto ezifanele okufanele zenziwe izinqumo ezinzima kunazo zonke
Ngabe lesi yisikhathi lapho ngidinga onikelayo?
Isibindi sehluleka kusuka kutshwala buthululelwa
Lonke igumbi liyaphotha, akuyona i-vodka, soda
Okucishe kwangibulala kungukuhle
[Pre-chorus]
Khuluma ngezingqinamba
Uzungezwe izindonga zezitini
Lokhu kubiza izingane
Ukuhoxisa
[Chorus]
Isuswe yonke inombolo kusuka kufoni yami, ngihlala ekhaya
Ngifisa ngempela ukuthi ngidakiwe ngabo bonke abangane bami
Ngizobe ngiyishaya noma ngeke ngize futhi nge-overdose
Ngempela ufisa ukuthi bengiphakeme ngabo bonke abangane bami
[Ivesi 2]
Ungalokothi unakekele udokotela we-Therapist
Ukuzikhukhumeza kwami kube ngamahloni
Akulungile ukuklebhula nalokhu
Ukulutha esikhundleni sabazali bami
Nginokulungiswa kokulungiswa ngeke ngikulungile
Ukunganaki ngokuzithandela
Ukugqokwa nokudwengula amaphutha ami
Cishe bekufanele bangingcwabe
Ngabe lokhu kungumzuzu lapho ngisonge khona futhi ngiphinde ngidlulise?
Imfucuza yonke imali yami ekuvuseleleni kabusha
Ayikwazi ukuthatha iphilisi kusuka kudokotela ukuze uphumule
Kukhanye ngentukuthelo noma nini lapho ngisabela
Zizwe njengendoda ebuthakathaka, angifuni ukuba yilokho
Ukuphila nsuku zonke ukuthola i-buzz ngempelasonto
Ngisekupheleni okujulile, ngilwa namademoni
I-Tryna ihlale ihlanzekile, ngidinga ngempela isizathu
Amathambo ami aqhaqhazela futhi izandla nezinyawo zami
Ngibona ikheji lami lembambo, kepha angikwazi ukudla
Ngisavuka ngithuka, ngakho-ke angikwazi ukulala
Ngihlala nje kubhavu lokugeza bese ngizama ukuphefumula
[Pre-chorus]
Khuluma ngezingqinamba
Uzungezwe izindonga zezitini
Lokhu kubiza izingane
Ukuhoxisa
[Chorus]
Isuswe yonke inombolo kusuka kufoni yami, ngihlala ekhaya
Ngifisa ngempela ukuthi ngidakiwe ngabo bonke abangane bami
Ngizobe ngiyishaya noma ngeke ngize futhi nge-overdose
Ngempela ufisa ukuthi bengiphakeme ngabo bonke abangane bami
[Bridge]
Angikaze ngizizwe kabi lokhu
Angazi ukuthi ngizokwenza yini
Awunawo amandla okusuka phansi khona manje
Kepha ngithemba futhi ngithandaze
Impilo yami yonke ngangifuna okuningi
Lokhu kungaba ukuphela
Kepha manje sengibe nobumnandi obuningi, sekuphelile manje
Bengikuthanda engikuzondayo
[Chorus]
Isuswe yonke inombolo kusuka kufoni yami, ngihlala ekhaya
Ngifisa ngempela ukuthi ngidakiwe ngabo bonke abangane bami
Ngizobe ngiyishaya noma ngeke ngize futhi nge-overdose
Ngempela ufisa ukuthi bengiphakeme ngabo bonke abangane bami
Isuswe yonke inombolo kusuka kufoni yami, ngihlala ekhaya
Ngifisa ngempela ukuthi ngidakiwe ngabo bonke abangane bami
Ngizobe ngiyishaya noma ngeke ngize futhi nge-overdose
Ngempela ufisa ukuthi bengiphakeme ngabo bonke abangane bami