I want it to be, like, messy
I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
I want it to be, like, messy
I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
Cause who am I if not exploited?
And I'm so sick of seventeen
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious, and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more
[Chorus]
All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (Ah-ah-ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
[Post-Chorus]
(Yeah)
[Verse 2]
I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park
[Chorus]
All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (Ah-ah-ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
[Post-Chorus]
(Yeah)
(Just havin' a really good time)
[Outro]
Got a broken ego, broken heart
(Yeah, it's brutal out here, yeah, it's brutal out here)
And God, I don't even know where to start
Men buni, masalan, iflos bo'lishini xohlayman
Men juda xavfliman, menimcha
Men ichishdan oldin o'laman
Va men yangiliklarga juda erishdim
Meni kim yoqtiradi va sizni kimdan nafratlanadi
Va men shunchalik charchadim
Ishimdan voz kech, yangi hayotni boshlang
Va ularning barchasi juda hafsalasi pir bo'ldilar
Agar men foydalanmasa, kimman?
Va men o'n etti yoshdaman
Mening fucking o'spirinim qani?
Agar kimdir menga yana bir bor aytsa
Yoshligingizdan zavqlaning, men yig'layman
Va men o'zim uchun yopishmayman
Men xavotirdaman va hech narsa yordam berolmaydi
Va men buni oldin qilgan bo'lardim
Va men odamlarga meni ko'proq yoqtirishlarini istardim
[Xor]
Men qilgan barcha ishlarni sinab ko'rdim
Bu kinoni men olamanmi?
Beixtiyor xafagarchilik (AH-AH)
Ularning aytishicha, bu oltin yillar
Ammo men yo'qolsam edi
Ego ezish juda og'ir
Xudo, bu bu erda shafqatsiz
[Xordan keyingi]
(Ha)
[2-oyat]
Hech kim mendan xohlamayman
Va men sezganimni yomon ko'raman
Menda faqat ikkita haqiqiy do'stim bor
Va so'nggi paytlarda men asabiy halokatman
Sababi, men yoqtirmaydigan odamlarni yaxshi ko'raman
Va men yozgan barcha qo'shiqlardan nafratlanaman
Va men ajoyib emasman, va men aqlli emasman
Va men hatto parallel parkni ham qila olmayman
[Xor]
Men qilgan barcha ishlarni sinab ko'rdim
Bu kinoni men olamanmi?
Beixtiyor xafagarchilik (AH-AH)
Ularning aytishicha, bu oltin yillar
Ammo men yo'qolsam edi
Ego ezish juda og'ir
Xudo, bu bu erda shafqatsiz
[Xordan keyingi]
(Ha)
(Shunchaki yaxshi vaqt)
[Ortiqcha]
Singan ego, singan yurak
(Ha, bu bu erda shafqatsiz, ha, bu bu erda shafqatsiz)
Va Xudo, qaerga boshlash kerakligini ham bilmayman