Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
by Sanderlei Silveira - 07/04/2023 - US
Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
When I should be living life and soaking up the memories
I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give you, it's true
Hanging by a thread's how I live
I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Verse 2]
Yeah, been this way so long
It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that I won't address
I got some baggage I ain't open yet
I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls I've been avoiding
Some family members I don't really connect with
Some things I said, I wish I woulda not let slip
Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope, heading down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Bridge]
Don't know what's around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on living in—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Outro]
If I was happy
If I was happy
Dragi bog, prosim, sliši me
Vem, da je minilo nekaj let
Odkar sem se obrnil in pozdravil
Stavim, da se sprašujete, zakaj obdržim
Obsedena in poudarja vse malenkosti
Ko bi moral živeti življenje in namočiti spomine
Vem, da sem bil sebičen, imam
Brez izgovora, da bi vam dal, res je
Obesi se s nitjo, kako živim
Ne vem, zakaj, vendar se počutim bolj udobno
[Refren]
Živim v moji agoniji
Gledanje, kako se moja samozavest dviguje v plamenu in se obnaša, kot da ne
Skrbi, kaj si kdo misli
Ko resnično vem, da je to najbolj oddaljeno od tega, kako sem
Počutim se, vendar sem preveč ponosen, da bi vas odprl in vas vprašal
Da me poberem in izvlečem to luknjo, v katero sem ujet
Resnica je, da potrebujem pomoč, ampak preprosto si ne predstavljam
Kdo bi bil, če bi bil vesel
[Verz 2]
Ja, tako dolgo sem bil tako
Zdi se, da je nekaj izklopljeno, ko nisem depresiven
Imam nekaj vprašanj, ki jih ne bom obravnaval
Imam nekaj prtljage, ki ga še nisem odprta
Imam nekaj demonov, ki bi jih moral počivati
Imam nekaj travm, ki jih ne morem pozabiti
Imam nekaj telefonskih klicev, ki se jih izogibam
Nekateri družinski člani, s katerimi se v resnici ne povežem
Nekatere stvari, ki sem jih rekel, želim, da ne bi pustil zdrsniti
Nekaj škodljivih besed, ki mi nikoli ne bi smele zapustiti ustnic
Nekateri mostovi so zgoreli, še nisem pripravljen obnoviti
Nekaj negotovosti, s katerimi se nisem ukvarjal, da
Prvi bom priznal, da sem osamljena duša
In zadnji, ki je priznal, da potrebujem roko
Izguba upanja in se usmeri po nevarni cesti
Čudno, vem, ampak najbolj se počutim kot doma, ko sem -
[Refren]
Živim v moji agoniji
Gledanje, kako se moja samozavest dviguje v plamenu in se obnaša, kot da ne
Skrbi, kaj si kdo misli
Ko resnično vem, da je to najbolj oddaljeno od tega, kako sem
Počutim se, vendar sem preveč ponosen, da bi vas odprl in vas vprašal
Da me poberem in izvlečem to luknjo, v katero sem ujet
Resnica je, da potrebujem pomoč, ampak preprosto si ne predstavljam
Kdo bi bil, če bi bil vesel
[Most]
Ne vem, kaj je okoli ovinka
Ne vem, kakšna je moja prihodnost
Ampak ne morem še naprej živeti -
[Refren]
Živim v moji agoniji
Gledanje, kako se moja samozavest dviguje v plamenu in se obnaša, kot da ne
Skrbi, kaj si kdo misli
Ko resnično vem, da je to najbolj oddaljeno od tega, kako sem
Počutim se, vendar sem preveč ponosen, da bi vas odprl in vas vprašal
Da me poberem in izvlečem to luknjo, v katero sem ujet
Resnica je, da potrebujem pomoč, ampak preprosto si ne predstavljam
Kdo bi bil, če bi bil vesel
[OUTRO]
Če bi bil vesel
Če bi bil vesel