Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
by Sanderlei Silveira - 07/04/2023 - US
Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
When I should be living life and soaking up the memories
I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give you, it's true
Hanging by a thread's how I live
I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Verse 2]
Yeah, been this way so long
It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that I won't address
I got some baggage I ain't open yet
I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls I've been avoiding
Some family members I don't really connect with
Some things I said, I wish I woulda not let slip
Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope, heading down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Bridge]
Don't know what's around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on living in—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Outro]
If I was happy
If I was happy
Dragi Bože, molim te čuj me napolje
Znam da je prošlo nekoliko godina
Otkad sam posegnuo i rekao zdravo
Kladim se da se pitaš zašto držim
Opsesivši i stres sve sitnice
Kad bih trebao živjeti život i natopiti uspomene
Znam da sam bio sebičan, imam
Nema izgovora da vam dam, istina je
Viseći se na nit kako živim
Ne znam zašto, ali osjećam se ugodnije
[Chorus]
Živi u mojoj agoniji
Gledajući moje samopoštovanje, ide u plamenu, ponašajući se kao da ne znam
Brinu šta neko drugi misli
Kad znam istinito da je to najudaljenija stvar iz načina
Osećate, ali previše sam ponosan što se otvaram i pitam vas
Da me pokupi i izvučem ovu rupu, zarobljen sam u
Istina je da mi treba pomoć, ali jednostavno ne mogu zamisliti
Ko bih bio da budem sretan
[VERSE 2]
Da, tako dugo sam bio tako dugo
Osjeća se kao da se nešto ne isključi kad nisam depresivan
Dobio sam neka pitanja koja se ne obraćam
Imam neki prtljag koji još nisam otvoren
Imam nekoliko demona koje bih trebao da se odmorim
Imam neke traume koje ne mogu zaboraviti
Imam nekoliko telefonskih poziva koje sam izbjegavao
Neki članovi porodice sa kojima se ne povezujem
Neke stvari koje sam rekao, volio bih da ne bih pustio klizanje
Neke povredne riječi koje mi nikada nisu trebale napustiti usne
Neki mostovi su izgoreli, nisam još spreman da se obnavljam
Neke nesigurnosti nisam bavio se, da
Bit ću prvi koji će priznati da sam usamljena duša
A posljednje priznati da mi treba ruka za držanje
Gubitak nade, krećući se niz opasnu cestu
Čudno, znam, ali najviše se osjećam kod kuće kad budem-
[Chorus]
Živi u mojoj agoniji
Gledajući moje samopoštovanje, ide u plamenu, ponašajući se kao da ne znam
Brinu šta neko drugi misli
Kad znam istinito da je to najudaljenija stvar iz načina
Osećate, ali previše sam ponosan što se otvaram i pitam vas
Da me pokupi i izvučem ovu rupu, zarobljen sam u
Istina je da mi treba pomoć, ali jednostavno ne mogu zamisliti
Ko bih bio da budem sretan
[Bridge]
Ne znam šta se oko zavoja
Ne znam šta je moja budućnost
Ali ne mogu nastaviti živjeti u-
[Chorus]
Živi u mojoj agoniji
Gledajući moje samopoštovanje, ide u plamenu, ponašajući se kao da ne znam
Brinu šta neko drugi misli
Kad znam istinito da je to najudaljenija stvar iz načina
Osećate, ali previše sam ponosan što se otvaram i pitam vas
Da me pokupi i izvučem ovu rupu, zarobljen sam u
Istina je da mi treba pomoć, ali jednostavno ne mogu zamisliti
Ko bih bio da budem sretan
[Outro]
Da sam bio sretan
Da sam bio sretan