I feel like I'm at a standstill
Waiting for you to tell me I'm okay
If time heals, tell me why do I kill
Myself tryna show you I'm not a mistake?
by Sanderlei Silveira - 08/04/2023 - US
I feel like I'm at a standstill
Waiting for you to tell me I'm okay
If time heals, tell me why do I kill
Myself tryna show you I'm not a mistake?
I've got qualities that I'm not proud of
I've made promises that I walked out on
I've had days I feel I don't deserve love
So think what you think, just don't call me a
[Verse 1]
Mistake, might've made some
Can't argue with that, but I ain't one
Even though I sometimes get afraid of
Having to face the wrath of an anxious me
I get it 'cause I actually
Feel the same, sometimes I think
I might be a lost cause
Who turns off 'cause the way I read
Into what I've been through
You think I'm mental but it pays off though
When the rent's due, I pursue what I love
And if it goes south and falls down, just know
I stand on my own two feet
Don't you see, those that oppose on me?
Most won't leave, thinking I might retreat
Show 'em my teeth quick if you turn on me 'cause
[Chorus]
I feel like I'm at a standstill
Waiting for you to tell me I'm okay
If time heals, tell me why do I kill
Myself tryna show you I'm not a mistake?
I've got qualities that I'm not proud of
I've made promises that I walked out on
I've had days I feel I don't deserve love
So think what you think, just don't call me a—
[Post-Chorus]
Just don't call me a—
Just don't call me a
[Verse 2]
Mistake, 'cause I'm not one
Misplaced, but I found a
Lot of resentment causes a mess
When you let it get to the place of
No confidence, struggle with it, that's obvious
But not enough to make me second-guess
If I'd die for the ones I love
So don't you get confused, thinking if you bring me down
I'ma just choose to let myself get used
I don't live like that, I feel trapped
I might lash out, I gotta watch my back
Cross my paths, especially with ill intent
You'll regret you ever took that task
If and when this thing could all go bad
Don't you act like no one warned you yet 'cause
[Chorus]
I feel like I'm at a standstill
Waiting for you to tell me I'm okay
If time heals, tell me why do I kill
Myself tryna show you I'm not a mistake?
I've got qualities that I'm not proud of
I've made promises that I walked out on
I've had days I feel I don't deserve love
So think what you think, just don't call me a
[Outro]
Mistake
Men o'zimni to'xtab turganday his qilyapman
Meni aytishingizni kutmoqdaman
Agar vaqt shifo bersa, menga nima uchun men o'ldiraman
O'zim xato emasligini ko'rsatingmi?
Men faxrlanmayman, men faxrlanmayman
Men yurganimni va'da qildim
Menda kunlar davomida sevgiga loyiq emasligimni his qilyapman
Shunday qilib, nima deb o'ylaysiz, menga qo'ng'iroq qilmang
[1-oyat]
Xato, ba'zilarini qilishimiz mumkin
Bu bilan bahslasholmayman, lekin men emasman
Hatto ba'zida qo'rqsam ham
Meni bezovta qiladigan g'azabga duch kelish
Men buni o'z-aslida keltiraman
His qilaman, ba'zida men o'ylayman
Yo'qotilgan sabab bo'lishi mumkin
Kimni o'qiganimda
Men olgan narsalarga
Siz aqlan deb o'ylaysiz, lekin u to'laydi
Ijara haqi tufayli men sevgan narsamdan intilaman
Va agar u janubga ketsa va tushsa, shunchaki bilaman
Men o'zimning ikki oyoqimda turaman
Ko'rmayapsizmi, menga qarshi bo'lganlar?
Chetlatishim mumkin deb o'ylaganimni ko'pchilik qoldirmaydi
Agar siz menga murojaat qilsangiz, tez tishlarimni ko'rsating
[Xor]
Men o'zimni to'xtab turganday his qilyapman
Meni aytishingizni kutmoqdaman
Agar vaqt shifo bersa, menga nima uchun men o'ldiraman
O'zim xato emasligini ko'rsatingmi?
Men faxrlanmayman, men faxrlanmayman
Men yurganimni va'da qildim
Menda kunlar davomida sevgiga loyiq emasligimni his qilyapman
Shunday qilib, nima deb o'ylaysiz, menga qo'ng'iroq qilmang
[Xordan keyingi]
Shunchaki menga qo'ng'iroq qilmang
Shunchaki menga qo'ng'iroq qilmang
[2-oyat]
Xato, - men emasman
Noto'g'ri joylashtirilgan, ammo men topdim
Xafagarchilikning ko'p qismi tartibsizlikka olib keladi
Siz bunga yo'l qo'yganingizda
Ishonch, u bilan kurashish, bu aniq
Lekin meni ikkinchi taxmin qilish uchun etarli emas
Agar men sevganlarim uchun o'lsam edi
Shunday qilib, siz meni olib tashlasangiz, chalkashib ketmaysiz
Ima shunchaki o'zimni ishlatadigan narsaga ruxsat berishni tanlaysiz
Men bunday yashamaysiz, men tushkunlikka tushaman
Men o'pishim mumkin, men orqamni tomosha qilaman
Mening yo'llarimni, ayniqsa yomon niyat bilan kesib o'ting
Siz bu vazifani olganingizdan afsuslanasiz
Agar va bu narsa hamma yomon bo'lsa
Hech kim sizni hali ham sabab bo'lmaganga o'xshamaydi
[Xor]
Men o'zimni to'xtab turganday his qilyapman
Meni aytishingizni kutmoqdaman
Agar vaqt shifo bersa, menga nima uchun men o'ldiraman
O'zim xato emasligini ko'rsatingmi?
Men faxrlanmayman, men faxrlanmayman
Men yurganimni va'da qildim
Menda kunlar davomida sevgiga loyiq emasligimni his qilyapman
Shunday qilib, nima deb o'ylaysiz, menga qo'ng'iroq qilmang
[Ortiqcha]
Xato