I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you
I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you
See I'm just scared I'll never love again
Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am?
I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins
And this devil on my shoulder is the only that lives but
There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic
And the people I gave my all to would take advantage
See, you called me crazy but I pick up every time it rings
When you say that you hate me, I just don't understand it
Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken
Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless
It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions
Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest (Are who we hold the closest)
And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run (Nowhere else to run)
I'm scared to see mirrors 'cause I hate who I become (I hate who I become)
I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love
But I can find a thousand reason why I'm loadin' up this gun, look
These days I need to be alone but I hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely)
And I hate the new me but I don't miss the old me
Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me
Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only
And my family don't look at me the same
They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins
They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed
Maybe I was too distant, too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fuck
I hope God hears me
No one's prayin' for me
Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me
My heart is growin' cold but you would never know
I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me
Certain people will never get who I am (Never get who I am)
Sometimes you have to listen to silence to understand (Silence to understand)
Wear my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands
Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man (Made me feel like less than a man)
[Outro]
We always seem to run from those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause
You left me when I needed you most
I said, we always seem to run from those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last, uh
I'm just hopin' that it last (Hopin' that it last)
Nisam govorio o tim osjećajima i mislim da moram
Vidim da ljudi kažu da su sretni, ali njihov osmijeh se vidi
Čujem da ljudi kažu da me vole, ali ne vjerujem ti
To je samo ono što se događa kada vas ona stalno živila ostavlja
Vidim se samo uplašena nikad više neću voljeti
Zašto to ne možeš staviti pokraj nas i voliš me tko sam ja?
Počinjem se osjećati kao da sam postao bliže mojim grijesima
I ovaj vrag na mom ramenu je jedini koji živi, ali
Bilo bi puta kad bih se osjećala previše duboko, počeo bih paničariti
I ljudi koje sam sve dao bih iskoristiti
Vidiš, nazvao si me lud, ali ja pokupiti svaki put kad zvoni
Kad kažeš da me mrziš, ne razumijem to
Možda sam previše oštećen, možda sam previše slomljena
Možda sam ja lozin ili možda sam samo beznadan
To je kao da živimo u svijetu u kojem ne možemo pokazati emocije
Poput onih koje nas najviše povrijede su ono što smo najbliži (oni koji držimo najbliže)
I samo se osjećam kao da nema nigdje ne trčati (nigdje drugdje)
Bojim se vidjeti ogledala jer mrzim tko postanem (mrzim tko postajem)
Nikad ne mogu naći razlog zašto sam tako teško voljeti
Ali mogu naći tisuću razloga zašto sam učitao ovaj pištolj, gledajući
Ovih dana moram biti sam, ali mrzim usamljenu (mrzim usamljen)
I mrzim novog mene, ali ne mislim starom
Još uvijek oštećena praznom ljubavlju koju si mi pokušao pokazati
Jer nisam bio jedini, to je bio vaš jedini i jedini
I moja obitelj me ne gleda isto
Gledaju me kao da ne dijelimo istu krv u našim žilama
Gledaju me kao da sam drugačiji kad su oni koji su se promijenili
Možda sam bio previše udaljen, previše zaglavljen na mojim putovima (previše zaglavio na mojim putovima), jebi
Nadam se da me Bog čuje
Nitko mi se ne može moliti
Tvoje oči govore mi sve što se bojiš reći mene
Moje srce je hladno, ali nikad ne bi znala
Naučio sam voljeti te ožiljke tako što mi je dao
Neki ljudi nikada neće dobiti tko sam (nikad ne dobivam tko sam
Ponekad morate slušati tišinu za razumijevanje (tišina razumjeti)
Nosite moje srce na rukavu i stavio sam svoj život u ruke
Je li sve što sam mogao, još uvijek me osjećam manje od muškarca (natjerao me se da se osjećam manje od muškarca)
[Outro]
Čini se da uvijek radimo od onih koji nas najviše vole
Nikada se ne otvaramo jer se uplašemo da se približimo
Mi trčimo iz prošlosti i
Mi se otupimo, navodimo se da je to posljednji
Ostavio si me kad ti najviše treba
Rekao sam, čini se da se uvijek trčimo od onih koji nas najviše vole
Nikada se ne otvaramo jer se uplašemo da se približimo
Mi trčimo iz prošlosti i
Umrljamo se, nastavljamo da je posljednji, uh
Samo se nadam da je posljednji (hopu 'da posljednji)