I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you
I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to
I see people say they're happy but their smile is see-through
I hear people say they love me but I don't believe you
That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you
See I'm just scared I'll never love again
Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am?
I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins
And this devil on my shoulder is the only that lives but
There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic
And the people I gave my all to would take advantage
See, you called me crazy but I pick up every time it rings
When you say that you hate me, I just don't understand it
Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken
Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless
It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions
Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest (Are who we hold the closest)
And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run (Nowhere else to run)
I'm scared to see mirrors 'cause I hate who I become (I hate who I become)
I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love
But I can find a thousand reason why I'm loadin' up this gun, look
These days I need to be alone but I hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely)
And I hate the new me but I don't miss the old me
Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me
Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only
And my family don't look at me the same
They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins
They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed
Maybe I was too distant, too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fuck
I hope God hears me
No one's prayin' for me
Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me
My heart is growin' cold but you would never know
I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me
Certain people will never get who I am (Never get who I am)
Sometimes you have to listen to silence to understand (Silence to understand)
Wear my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands
Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man (Made me feel like less than a man)
[Outro]
We always seem to run from those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause
You left me when I needed you most
I said, we always seem to run from those who love us the most
We never open up because we're scared to get close
We runnin' from the past and
We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last, uh
I'm just hopin' that it last (Hopin' that it last)
我没有谈过这些感受，我想我需要
我看到人们说他们很高兴，但他们的笑容是透露
我听到人们说他们爱我，但我不相信你
这只是当你活着的人离开时会发生什么
看到我只是害怕，我永远不会再爱
为什么你不能把它戴过去，爱我，因为我是谁？
我始于觉得我越来越靠近我的罪
而这件魔鬼在我的肩膀上是唯一的生命，但是
有时我会感觉太深，我会开始恐慌
和我赐给我所有人的人会利用
看，你打电话给我疯了，但我每次戒指拿起
当你说你恨我时，我只是不明白
也许我太损坏了，也许我太碎了
也许我是我自己或者我也许我只是绝望
这就像我们生活在我们无法展示情绪的世界内
就像那些伤害我们最近的人就像我们最近的（是我们最接近的人）
而且我只是觉得有别的地方跑（无处可去）
我害怕看到镜子，因为我讨厌我成为谁（我讨厌我成为谁）
我永远找不到为什么我难以爱的原因
但我可以找到一千个原因，为什么我加载这个枪，看
这几天我需要独自一人，但我讨厌Bein'孤独（我讨厌Bein'孤独）
而且我讨厌新的我，但我不会错过老我
仍然被你试图向我展示的空的爱损坏
因为我不是唯一一个，这是你的一个，只有你
我的家人看起来不一样
他们看着我，就像我们在我们的血管中没有分享相同的血液
当他们改变的人时，他们看着我，就像我不同
也许我太遥远了，陷入了我的方式（陷入困境），他妈的
我希望上帝听到我
没有人为我祈祷
你的眼睛告诉我你对我说的一切都害怕
我的心在寒冷，但你永远不会知道
我学会了忘记了那些给我的人的欺骗了这些伤疤
某些人永远不会得到我（永远不会得到谁）
有时你必须倾听沉默以了解（沉默理解）
在我的袖子上戴上我的心，我把我的生命放在手里
我尽我所能，你仍然让我觉得不到一个男人（让我觉得不到一个男人）
[Outro]
我们似乎总是从那些最爱我们的人跑
我们永远不会开放，因为我们害怕接近
我们从过去奔跑
我们麻木了自己，祝福'持续'原因
当我最需要你时，你离开了我
我说，我们似乎总是从那些最爱我们的人跑
我们永远不会开放，因为我们害怕接近
我们从过去奔跑
我们麻木了自己，祝福，呃，呃
我只是跳起来，它持续（跳动'它）