Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Cause all I wanna do is talk about you
But these tears won't let me talk about you
We should've known that we'd be lost without you
Therapy sessions, diggin' deep in depression
I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fuckin' heart
At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile
I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in while
Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain
Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it
I never knew you touched the stuff, 'cause you'd always bad me up
If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does
Before Lyra, I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one
I can't get over this, it's fucked, man, I wished I'd known
And yo, we cried for nine nights in your family home
Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone
You know it hits me most at moments now when I'm alone
Every morning, I remember that you're really gone
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
You know for life, got your sis and mother
And day and night, it still hits that you're gone
And right now I'm spillin' tears in my cup
You left the world 'fore you met Jupiter
Wish you'd have known you would be godfather
You would've loved lovin' my little girls
If not for them, I'd be done with the world
[Verse 2]
Was there two hours after you passed
Speedin' east to west, silent in the back of the car
Was at your mum's, there all week, tryin' to make sense but I can't
And although it's been a year, still feel the pain in my heart
Cause you were there from the start
The day we met, yeah, I moved in and we were never apart
People assumed that we were lovers, but we're brothers in arms
Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god, ah
Fuck sake
Lately I've been cryin' so much, my lungs ache
Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains
And I know to heal a heart, it must break
But I'm done prayin', they
Gave me a shovel at your burial
And watchin' you get lowered is somethin' I can't forget at all
And people find and stop me in the street and say it's terrible
But they don't know you like I knew you and they never will
No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rappin'
No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random
No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbin'
No one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothin'
No one read the conversations of the moves that we were plannin'
No one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandoned
No one knew about your fears 'cause you would hide 'em with a smile
No one knew when people took an inch, you would give 'em a mile
Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowd
They used to shout your net worth, but they don't mention it now
They hear about your good deeds and infectious smile
A golden heart that's still remembered is worth more than a crown
I promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to Tanisha
Mummy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you'd seen it
I can't accept that you're gone, or the grief that I'm feeling
I prayed to God for answers, but He still won't give me a reason
I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away
I'll keep your legacy amazin', mate
The conversations at your grave's the only way to be close
I know you'll greet me with a smile on the day that I go
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
And for life, got your sis and mother
You know I cry 'cause I miss my brother
My brother was SBTV
Yo, Jam, dette er et brev til dig
Det har været et stykke tid, men det har været svært for mig at komme i standen
Og siden vi sidst talte, er jeg blevet far til to
Tryna lever livet med et smil, men det har været sværere at gøre
For alt hvad jeg vil gøre er at tale om dig
Men disse tårer lader mig ikke tale om dig
Vi burde have vidst, at vi ville gå tabt uden dig
Terapisessioner, diggin 'dybt i depression
Jeg fik et liv fuld af velsignelser, men dette bryder bare mit fuckin 'hjerte
På din fødselsdag kunne ikke engang knække et smil
Jeg græd lige og forlod festen, Neesh, vi ses i
På vej mod vægmaleriet, fik nogle jerk -vinger og plantain
Fordi det er sådan, jeg og du ville fejre det
Jeg vidste aldrig, at du rørte ved tingene, for du ville altid have det dårligt
Hvis du så mig mere end beruset, hadede du altid, hvad det gør
Før Lyra stoppede jeg lige, jeg har ikke engang ønsket en
Jeg kan ikke komme over dette, det er kneppet, mand, jeg ønskede, at jeg havde kendt
Og yo, vi græd om ni nætter i dit familiehus
Lagt dig til hvile i jorden, men uden en sten
Du ved, det rammer mig mest på øjeblikke nu, når jeg er alene
Hver morgen husker jeg, at du virkelig er væk
[Kor]
For det har været en lang nat, og jeg græder, fordi jeg savner min bror
Du kender for livet, fik din sis og mor
Og dag og nat, det rammer stadig, at du er væk
Og lige nu spilder jeg tårer i min kop
Du forlod verdens før du mødte Jupiter
Jeg ville ønske, du ville have vidst, at du ville være gudfar
Du ville have elsket at elske mine små piger
Hvis ikke for dem, ville jeg være færdig med verden
[Vers 2]
Var der to timer efter, at du gik
Speedin 'øst mod vest, stille bagpå bilen
Var hos din mors, der hele ugen, prøv at give mening, men jeg kan ikke
Og selvom det har været et år, skal du stadig føle smerten i mit hjerte
For du var der fra starten
Den dag, vi mødte, ja, jeg flyttede ind, og vi var aldrig fra hinanden
Folk antog, at vi var elskere, men vi er brødre i våben
Symbiotisk kærlighed af kærlighed og gav hinanden en chance, min Gud, ah
Fuck skyld
På det seneste har jeg grædet så meget, mine lungerne
Teardrops over hele min skjorte som blodpletter
Og jeg ved at helbrede et hjerte, det skal gå i stykker
Men jeg er færdig med at bede, de
Gav mig en skovl ved din begravelse
Og se, du bliver sænket, er noget, jeg kan slet ikke glemme
Og folk finder og stopper mig på gaden og siger, at det er forfærdeligt
Men de ved ikke, at du som jeg kendte dig, og de vil aldrig
Ingen så nætterne blive til dagen, da vi var Battle Rappin '
Ingen så maven grine, og hvert tog til et sted tilfældigt
Ingen så ferien, og så er vores første oplevelse klubbin '
Ingen vidste de ting, du gjorde for mig og aldrig bad om noget
Ingen læste samtalerne i de bevægelser, som vi planlagde
Ingen vidste om den måde, du følte scenen på, efterlod dig forladt
Ingen vidste om din frygt for, at du ville skjule dem med et smil
Ingen vidste, hvornår folk tog en tomme, du ville give dem en kilometer
Årsag, der altid var Jamal, SB til mængden
De plejede at råbe din nettoværdi, men de nævner det ikke nu
De hører om dine gode gerninger og smitsomme smil
Et gyldent hjerte, der stadig huskes, er mere værd end en krone
Jeg lovede fireogtres barer, og nu holder jeg det til Tanisha
Mumie, Isaac, banden, men jeg ville bare ønske, at du havde set det
Jeg kan ikke acceptere, at du er væk, eller den sorg, som jeg føler
Jeg bad til Gud om svar, men han giver mig stadig ikke en grund
Jeg tænker på dig hver dag, intet vil fjerne denne smerte væk
Jeg holder din arv Amazin ', kammerat
Samtalerne på din grav er den eneste måde at være tæt på
Jeg ved, at du vil hilse på mig med et smil den dag, jeg går
[Kor]
For det har været en lang nat, og jeg græder, fordi jeg savner min bror
Og for livet, fik din sis og mor
Du ved, at jeg græder, fordi jeg savner min bror
Min bror var SBTV