Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Cause all I wanna do is talk about you
But these tears won't let me talk about you
We should've known that we'd be lost without you
Therapy sessions, diggin' deep in depression
I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fuckin' heart
At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile
I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in while
Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain
Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it
I never knew you touched the stuff, 'cause you'd always bad me up
If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does
Before Lyra, I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one
I can't get over this, it's fucked, man, I wished I'd known
And yo, we cried for nine nights in your family home
Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone
You know it hits me most at moments now when I'm alone
Every morning, I remember that you're really gone
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
You know for life, got your sis and mother
And day and night, it still hits that you're gone
And right now I'm spillin' tears in my cup
You left the world 'fore you met Jupiter
Wish you'd have known you would be godfather
You would've loved lovin' my little girls
If not for them, I'd be done with the world
[Verse 2]
Was there two hours after you passed
Speedin' east to west, silent in the back of the car
Was at your mum's, there all week, tryin' to make sense but I can't
And although it's been a year, still feel the pain in my heart
Cause you were there from the start
The day we met, yeah, I moved in and we were never apart
People assumed that we were lovers, but we're brothers in arms
Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god, ah
Fuck sake
Lately I've been cryin' so much, my lungs ache
Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains
And I know to heal a heart, it must break
But I'm done prayin', they
Gave me a shovel at your burial
And watchin' you get lowered is somethin' I can't forget at all
And people find and stop me in the street and say it's terrible
But they don't know you like I knew you and they never will
No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rappin'
No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random
No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbin'
No one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothin'
No one read the conversations of the moves that we were plannin'
No one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandoned
No one knew about your fears 'cause you would hide 'em with a smile
No one knew when people took an inch, you would give 'em a mile
Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowd
They used to shout your net worth, but they don't mention it now
They hear about your good deeds and infectious smile
A golden heart that's still remembered is worth more than a crown
I promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to Tanisha
Mummy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you'd seen it
I can't accept that you're gone, or the grief that I'm feeling
I prayed to God for answers, but He still won't give me a reason
I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away
I'll keep your legacy amazin', mate
The conversations at your grave's the only way to be close
I know you'll greet me with a smile on the day that I go
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
And for life, got your sis and mother
You know I cry 'cause I miss my brother
My brother was SBTV
Yo, jam, ovo je pismo tebi
Prošlo je neko vrijeme, ali teško mi je ući u kabinu
A otkad smo zadnji put razgovarali, postao sam otac dvoje djece
Pokušajte živjeti život s osmijehom, ali to je bilo teže učiniti
Jer sve što želim je razgovarati o tebi
Ali ove suze mi neće dopustiti da razgovaram o tebi
Trebali smo znati da bismo se izgubili bez tebe
Terapijske sesije, diggin 'duboko u depresiji
Dobio sam život pun blagoslova, ali ovo mi samo slomi jebeno srce
Na vaš rođendan, nisi ni mogao puknuti osmijeh
Samo sam plakao i napustio zabavu, Neesh, vidimo se dok
Krenuli prema muralu, dobili su nekoliko kretenskih krila i plantaže
Jer to je način na koji bismo to i vi proslavili
Nikad nisam znao da si dodirnuo stvari, jer bi me uvijek loše
Ako ste me vidjeli više od pijanog, uvijek ste mrzili što radi
Prije Lyre, samo sam se zaustavio, nisam ga ni želio
Ne mogu ovo preboljeti, jebeno je, čovječe, poželio sam da znam
I yo, plakali smo devet noći u vašoj obiteljskoj kući
Stavio vas da se odmoriš u zemlji, ali bez kamena
Znate da me najviše udara u trenucima kad sam sama
Svakog jutra sjećam se da vas stvarno nema
[Zbor]
Jer je prošla duga noć i plačem jer mi nedostaje moj brat
Znate za život, dobili ste svoju seriju i majku
I dan i noć, još uvijek pogađa da vas nema
I upravo sada prosujem suze u svoju šalicu
Napustili ste svijet prije što ste upoznali Jupitera
Volio bih da biste znali da ćeš biti kum
Voljeli biste voljeti moje djevojčice
Da nije za njih, završio bih sa svijetom
[Stih 2]
Je li bilo dva sata nakon što ste prošli
Brzina prema istoku prema zapadu, šutje u stražnjem dijelu automobila
Bio kod tvojih mama, tamo cijeli tjedan, pokušati imati smisla, ali ne mogu
I iako je prošla godinu dana, još uvijek osjećam bol u mom srcu
Jer ste bili tamo od početka
Dan kad smo se upoznali, da, uselila sam se i nikad nismo bili razdvojeni
Ljudi su pretpostavili da smo ljubavnici, ali mi smo braća po oružju
Simbiotska veza ljubavi i dala jedni drugima priliku, Bože moj, ah
Jebote
U posljednje vrijeme toliko sam plakao, pluća me boli
Suze mi po cijeloj košulji poput mrlje od krvi
I znam izliječiti srce, mora se slomiti
Ali završio sam, moli se, oni
Dao mi lopatu na tvoj sahranjivanje
I gledajte kako se spuštate nešto je što uopće ne mogu zaboraviti
A ljudi me pronalaze i zaustave na ulici i kažu da je grozno
Ali ne znaju te kao da sam te poznavao i nikad neće
Nitko nije vidio da se noći pretvaraju u dan kada smo bili bojni rappin '
Nitko nije vidio da se trbuh smije, a svaki vlak negdje slučajno
Nitko nije vidio praznike, a onda je naše prvo iskustvo klubova
Nitko nije znao stvari koje si učinio za mene i nikad nije tražio ništa
Nitko nije pročitao razgovore poteza koje smo planirali
Nitko nije znao o načinu na koji ste osjetili prizor, ostavio vas
Nitko nije znao za vaše strahove, jer biste ih sakrili s osmijehom
Nitko nije znao kad su ljudi uzeli centimetar, dali biste im kilometar
Jer to je uvijek bio jamal, sb gomili
Vikali su vašu neto vrijednost, ali to sada ne spominju
Čuju o vašim dobrim djelima i zaraznom osmijehu
Zlatno srce koje se još uvijek sjeća vrijedi više od krune
Obećao sam šezdeset i četiri barove i sada ga držim za tanisha
Mumija, Isaac, banda, ali samo želim da ste to vidjeli
Ne mogu prihvatiti da vas nema ili tuga koju osjećam
Molio sam Boga za odgovore, ali on mi još uvijek neće dati razlog
Razmišljam o vama svaki dan, ništa neće oduzeti tu bol
Zadržat ću vašu ostavštinu zadivljujući, prijatelju
Razgovori u vašem grobu jedini način da budete blizu
Znam da ćeš me pozdraviti s osmijehom na dan kad idem
[Zbor]
Jer je prošla duga noć i plačem jer mi nedostaje moj brat
I za život, dobio sam svoju seriju i majku
Znaš da plačem jer mi nedostaje moj brat
Moj brat je bio SBTV