Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
by Sanderlei Silveira - 07/04/2023 - SA
Dear God, please hear me out
I know it's been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said hello
I bet you're wondering why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
When I should be living life and soaking up the memories
I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give you, it's true
Hanging by a thread's how I live
I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Verse 2]
Yeah, been this way so long
It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that I won't address
I got some baggage I ain't open yet
I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls I've been avoiding
Some family members I don't really connect with
Some things I said, I wish I woulda not let slip
Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope, heading down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Bridge]
Don't know what's around the bend
Don't know what my future is
But I can't keep on living in—
[Chorus]
Living in my agony
Watching my self-esteem go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks
When I know truthfully that that's the furthest thing from how I
Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask you
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is I need help, but I just can't imagine
Who I'd be if I was happy
[Outro]
If I was happy
If I was happy
Hurmatli Xudo, iltimos, meni eshiting
Bilaman, bu ikki yil bo'ldi
Men chiqqanim va salom aytganimdan beri
Ishonaman, nima uchun men turaman
Barcha kichik narsalarni kiyish va ta'kidlash
Qachon men yashash va xotiralarni namlashim kerak bo'lsa
Men xudbin bo'lganimni bilaman, menda bor
Sizga berish uchun uzr yo'q, bu haqiqat
Men qanday yashayotganim uchun osilgan
Nima uchun bilmayman, lekin men o'zimni qulay his qilaman
[Xor]
Mening azobimda yashash
O'zimni qadrlashimni tomosha qilish olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Men haqiqat bilan bilganimda, bu men qanday qilib eng uzoq narsa ekanligimdan
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va sizdan so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[2-oyat]
Ha, shu qadar uzoq bo'lgan
Tushkunlikka tushmaganimda, nimadir yo'qdek tuyuladi
Men murojaat qilmaydigan ba'zi masalalarni oldim
Menda hali ochilmagan yuklarni oldim
Men dam olishim kerak bo'lgan jinlar oldim
Men unuta olmayman, degan jarohatlarim bor
Menda ba'zi qo'ng'iroqlar bor, men qochib qoldim
Ba'zi oila a'zolari men aslida u bilan bog'lanmayman
Ba'zi narsalar, men slipga yo'l qo'ymaslikni istardim
Hech qachon liboslarimni tark etmaydigan ba'zi zararli so'zlar
Ba'zi ko'priklar yonib ketdi, men hali qayta tiklashga tayyor emasman
Menda hech qanday ishonchsizlik, ha, ha
Men birinchi bo'lib yolg'iz jonman deb tan olaman
Va oxirgi qabul qilish menga ushlab turish uchun qo'li kerak
Umidni yo'qotish, xavfli yo'ldan pastga qarab
G'alati, men bilaman, lekin men o'zimni uyda eng ko'p his qilyapman -
[Xor]
Mening azobimda yashash
O'zimni qadrlashimni tomosha qilish olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Men haqiqat bilan bilganimda, bu men qanday qilib eng uzoq narsa ekanligimdan
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va sizdan so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[Ko'prik]
Egilish atrofida nima borligini bilmayman
Mening kelajagim nima ekanligini bilmayman
Ammo men yashashda davom etmayman.
[Xor]
Mening azobimda yashash
O'zimni qadrlashimni tomosha qilish olovdan yuqoriga ko'taring, men kabi harakat qilmayman
Boshqa hech kim deb o'ylaydigan narsalarga g'amxo'rlik qiling
Men haqiqat bilan bilganimda, bu men qanday qilib eng uzoq narsa ekanligimdan
His eting, lekin men ochganimdan juda g'ururlanaman va sizdan so'rayman
Meni olib, meni tortib olish uchun bu teshikni olib tashladim
Haqiqat menga yordam kerak, lekin men shunchaki tasavvur qila olmayman
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam, kim
[Ortiqcha]
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam
Agar men baxtli bo'lsam