Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Cause all I wanna do is talk about you
But these tears won't let me talk about you
We should've known that we'd be lost without you
Therapy sessions, diggin' deep in depression
I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fuckin' heart
At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile
I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in while
Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain
Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it
I never knew you touched the stuff, 'cause you'd always bad me up
If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does
Before Lyra, I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one
I can't get over this, it's fucked, man, I wished I'd known
And yo, we cried for nine nights in your family home
Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone
You know it hits me most at moments now when I'm alone
Every morning, I remember that you're really gone
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
You know for life, got your sis and mother
And day and night, it still hits that you're gone
And right now I'm spillin' tears in my cup
You left the world 'fore you met Jupiter
Wish you'd have known you would be godfather
You would've loved lovin' my little girls
If not for them, I'd be done with the world
[Verse 2]
Was there two hours after you passed
Speedin' east to west, silent in the back of the car
Was at your mum's, there all week, tryin' to make sense but I can't
And although it's been a year, still feel the pain in my heart
Cause you were there from the start
The day we met, yeah, I moved in and we were never apart
People assumed that we were lovers, but we're brothers in arms
Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god, ah
Fuck sake
Lately I've been cryin' so much, my lungs ache
Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains
And I know to heal a heart, it must break
But I'm done prayin', they
Gave me a shovel at your burial
And watchin' you get lowered is somethin' I can't forget at all
And people find and stop me in the street and say it's terrible
But they don't know you like I knew you and they never will
No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rappin'
No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random
No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbin'
No one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothin'
No one read the conversations of the moves that we were plannin'
No one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandoned
No one knew about your fears 'cause you would hide 'em with a smile
No one knew when people took an inch, you would give 'em a mile
Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowd
They used to shout your net worth, but they don't mention it now
They hear about your good deeds and infectious smile
A golden heart that's still remembered is worth more than a crown
I promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to Tanisha
Mummy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you'd seen it
I can't accept that you're gone, or the grief that I'm feeling
I prayed to God for answers, but He still won't give me a reason
I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away
I'll keep your legacy amazin', mate
The conversations at your grave's the only way to be close
I know you'll greet me with a smile on the day that I go
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
And for life, got your sis and mother
You know I cry 'cause I miss my brother
My brother was SBTV
Jo, jam, toto je list pre teba
Je to už nejaký čas, ale bolo pre mňa ťažké dostať sa do stánku
A keďže sme naposledy hovorili, stal som sa otcom dvoch
Tryna žiť život s úsmevom, ale to bolo ťažšie robiť
Pretože všetko, čo chcem urobiť, je hovoriť o tebe
Ale tieto slzy mi nedovolia hovoriť o tebe
Mali sme vedieť, že bez teba by sme sa stratili
Terapeutické stretnutia, diggin 'hlboko v depresii
Mám život plný požehnaní, ale toto len zlomí moje kurva srdce
Na vaše narodeniny nemohol ani rozbiť úsmev
Práve som plakal a opustil som večierok, Neesh, uvidíme sa v čase
Zamierte na nástennú maľbu, dostali nejaké trhané krídla a plantain
Pretože to je spôsob, akým som to a vy by ste to oslávili
Nikdy som nevedel, že si sa dotkol vecí, pretože si ma vždy zlý
Ak ste ma videli viac ako opitého, vždy ste nenávideli, čo robí
Pred Lyra som sa práve zastavil, ani som ho nechcel
Nemôžem to prekonať, je to v prdeli, človeče, chcel som to vedieť
A jo, plakali sme deväť nocí vo vašom rodinnom dome
Položil vás na odpočinok v zemi, ale bez kameňa
Vieš, že ma to najviac zasiahne v okamihu, keď som sám
Každé ráno si pamätám, že si naozaj preč
[Chorus]
Pretože to bola dlhá noc a plačem, pretože mi chýba môj brat
Vieš na celý život, máš svoje sis a matka
A vo dne a v noci stále zasiahne, že si preč
A práve teraz rozlievam slzy do môjho pohára
Opustil si svet ', pretože si splnil Jupitera
Kiež by ste vedeli, že by ste boli krstným otcom
Miloval by si milovať moje malé dievčatá
Ak nie pre nich, bol by som hotový so svetom
[Verš 2]
Boli tam dve hodiny po tom, čo ste prešli
Speedin 'na východ na západ, ticho v zadnej časti auta
Bol u tvojej mamy, tam celý týždeň, snažím sa dať zmysel, ale nemôžem
A hoci je to rok, stále cítim bolesť v mojom srdci
Pretože si tam bol od začiatku
V deň, keď sme sa stretli, áno, presťahoval som sa a nikdy sme neboli od seba oddelení
Ľudia predpokladali, že sme milenci, ale sme bratia v náručí
Symbiotické puto lásky a dali si navzájom šancu, môj Bože, ach
Kurva
V poslednej dobe som tak plakal, ma bolia pľúca
Slzy po celej mojej košeli ako krvné škvrny
A viem, že uzdravím srdce, musí sa zlomiť
Ale ja som hotovo modlil, oni
Dal mi lopatu pri tvojom pohrebe
A sledujte, ako sa spustí
A ľudia ma nájdu a zastavia ma na ulici a hovoria, že je to hrozné
Ale oni ťa nevedia, akoby som ťa poznal a nikdy to neurobia
Nikto nevidel, keď sa noci zmenili na deň, keď sme bojovali proti rappin '
Nikto nevidel brucho smiech a každý vlak niekde náhodne
Nikto nevidel sviatky a potom naša prvá skúsenosť Clubbin '
Nikto nevedel, čo si pre mňa urobil, a nikdy som nepožiadal o nič
Nikto nečítal rozhovory s pohybmi, ktoré sme plánovali
Nikto nevedel o tom, ako ste cítili scénu, nechal ťa opustiť
Nikto nevedel o svojich obavách, pretože by ste ich skryli s úsmevom
Nikto nevedel, keď ľudia vzali palec, dali by ste ich míle
Pretože to bolo vždy Jamal, SB do davu
Kvalitne kričali vašu čistú hodnotu, ale teraz o tom nespomínajú
Počujú o vašich dobrých skutkoch a infekčnom úsmeve
Zlaté srdce, na ktoré sa stále pamätá, má hodnotu viac ako korun
Sľúbil som šesťdesiatštyri barov a teraz ich nechám na Tanisha
Múmia, Izák, gang, ale len by som si prial, aby si to videl
Nemôžem akceptovať, že si preč, alebo zármutok, ktorý cítim
Modlil som sa k Bohu za odpovede, ale stále mi nedá dôvod
Myslím na vás každý deň, nič neznesie túto bolesť
Budem si ponechať tvoj starý amazin ', kámo
Rozhovory v hrobe je jediný spôsob, ako byť blízko
Viem, že ma pozdravíš s úsmevom v deň, keď idem
[Chorus]
Pretože to bola dlhá noc a plačem, pretože mi chýba môj brat
A na celý život, dostanete svoju sis a matku
Vieš, že plače, pretože mi chýba môj brat
Môj brat bol SBTV