Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
And since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
Cause all I wanna do is talk about you
But these tears won't let me talk about you
We should've known that we'd be lost without you
Therapy sessions, diggin' deep in depression
I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fuckin' heart
At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile
I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in while
Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain
Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it
I never knew you touched the stuff, 'cause you'd always bad me up
If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does
Before Lyra, I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one
I can't get over this, it's fucked, man, I wished I'd known
And yo, we cried for nine nights in your family home
Laid you to rest in the ground but without a stone
You know it hits me most at moments now when I'm alone
Every morning, I remember that you're really gone
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
You know for life, got your sis and mother
And day and night, it still hits that you're gone
And right now I'm spillin' tears in my cup
You left the world 'fore you met Jupiter
Wish you'd have known you would be godfather
You would've loved lovin' my little girls
If not for them, I'd be done with the world
[Verse 2]
Was there two hours after you passed
Speedin' east to west, silent in the back of the car
Was at your mum's, there all week, tryin' to make sense but I can't
And although it's been a year, still feel the pain in my heart
Cause you were there from the start
The day we met, yeah, I moved in and we were never apart
People assumed that we were lovers, but we're brothers in arms
Symbiotic bond of love and gave each other a chance, my god, ah
Fuck sake
Lately I've been cryin' so much, my lungs ache
Teardrops all over my shirt like blood stains
And I know to heal a heart, it must break
But I'm done prayin', they
Gave me a shovel at your burial
And watchin' you get lowered is somethin' I can't forget at all
And people find and stop me in the street and say it's terrible
But they don't know you like I knew you and they never will
No one saw the nights turn into day when we were battle rappin'
No one saw the belly laugh, and every train to somewhere random
No one saw the holidays, and then our first experience clubbin'
No one knew the things you did for me and never asked for nothin'
No one read the conversations of the moves that we were plannin'
No one knew about the way you felt the scene, left you abandoned
No one knew about your fears 'cause you would hide 'em with a smile
No one knew when people took an inch, you would give 'em a mile
Cause that was always Jamal, SB to the crowd
They used to shout your net worth, but they don't mention it now
They hear about your good deeds and infectious smile
A golden heart that's still remembered is worth more than a crown
I promised sixty-four bars and now I keep it to Tanisha
Mummy, Isaac, the gang, but I just wish that you'd seen it
I can't accept that you're gone, or the grief that I'm feeling
I prayed to God for answers, but He still won't give me a reason
I think about you every day, nothing will take this pain away
I'll keep your legacy amazin', mate
The conversations at your grave's the only way to be close
I know you'll greet me with a smile on the day that I go
[Chorus]
Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
And for life, got your sis and mother
You know I cry 'cause I miss my brother
My brother was SBTV
Yo, džem, ovo je pismo vama
Prošlo je dosta vremena, ali teško mi je ući u kabinu
A otkad smo poslednji put razgovarali, postao sam otac dvoje
Tryna živi život sa osmijehom, ali to je teže učiniti
Jer sve što želim je razgovarati o tebi
Ali ove suze mi neće dopustiti da pričam o tebi
Trebali smo znati da bismo se izgubili bez tebe
Terapijske sesije, DIGGIN 'duboko u depresiji
Dobio sam život pun blagoslova, ali ovo mi samo razbija srce
Na tvoj rođendan nisi mogao ni probiti osmijeh
Upravo sam plakao i napustio zabavu, Neesh, vidimo se za vrijeme
Krenuli smo prema muralu, imaš neke kretene krila i plantain
Jer to bi to i vi proslavili
Nikad nisam znao da si dodirnuo stvari, jer si me uvijek bio loš
Da ste me vidjeli više nego pijan, uvijek ste mrzeli ono što radi
Prije Lyre, samo sam se prestao, nisam ni htio
Ne mogu se preboljeti, jebeno je, čoveče, poželeo sam da znam
I yo, plakali smo za devet noći u vašoj porodičnoj kući
Položio te da se odmaraš u zemlji, ali bez kamena
Znate da me sada najviše udari u trenutke kad sam sama
Svakog jutra sjećam se da si stvarno nestao
[Chorus]
Jer je prošla duga noć i plačem, jer mi nedostaje brat
Znate za život, dobili ste svoj sis i majku
I dan i noć, još uvijek pogodi da nemaš
I upravo sada prosiram suze u svojoj čaši
Napustili ste svijet naprijed, upoznali ste Jupitera
Volio bih da si znao da bi ti bio kuma
Voljeli biste voljeli ljubav moje djevojčice
Ako ne za njih, bio bih učinio sa svijetom
[VERSE 2]
Da li je bilo dva sata nakon što ste prošli
Brzina istoka na zapad, tih u stražnjem dijelu automobila
Bio je na tvojoj mami cijeli tjedan, pokušavajući imati smisla, ali ne mogu
I iako je prošlo godinu dana, još uvijek osjetite bol u mom srcu
Jer si bio tamo od početka
Dan kad smo se sreli, da, uselila sam se i nikada nismo bili odvojeni
Ljudi su pretpostavili da smo bili ljubavnici, ali smo braća u oružju
Simbiotska veza ljubavi i dala je jedna drugu šansu, moj Bože, Ah
Jebi se
U posljednje vrijeme plačem toliko, bolovi u plućima
Suze po cijeloj mojoj košulji poput mrlja od krvi
I znam da izliječim srce, mora se slomiti
Ali završio sam molitstvo, oni
Dao mi lopatu na vašem sahranu
I gledaj da se spuštaš je nešto što uopšte ne mogu zaboraviti
I ljudi me nađu i zaustavljaju me na ulici i kažu da je strašno
Ali ne znaju da vas kao što sam vas poznavao i nikad neće
Nitko nije vidio da se noći pretvaraju u dan kad smo bili bitter Rappin '
Nitko nije vidio trbuh i svaki voz da negdje slučajno
Nitko nije vidio praznike, a zatim prvo iskustvo Clubbin '
Niko nije znao stvari koje si učinio za mene i nikad nisu tražili ništa
Nitko nije pročitao razgovore poteza koje smo planirali
Nitko nije znao za način na koji si osjetio scenu, ostavio si napušten
Nitko nije znao za vaše strahove jer biste ih sakrili sa osmijehom
Niko nije znao kad su ljudi uzeli inč, dali biste mi milju
Jer to je uvijek bio Jamal, SB do gužve
Nekada su vikli vašu neto vrijednost, ali sada ga ne spominju
Čuju za vaša dobra djela i zarazni osmijeh
Zlatno srce koje je još uvijek se sjećalo vrijedi više od krune
Obećao sam šezdeset i četiri bara i sada ga držim Tanishi
Mama, Isaac, banda, ali samo želim da si to vidio
Ne mogu prihvatiti da nemate, ili tugu koju osjećam
Molio sam se Bogu na odgovore, ali još uvijek mi neće dati razlog
Svakodnevno razmišljam o tebi, ništa neće oduzeti ovu bol
Zadržaću vašu zaostavštinu neveru, prijatelju
Razgovori na vašem grobu jedini način da se zatvorite
Znam da ćeš me pozdraviti sa osmijehom na dan kad odem
[Chorus]
Jer je prošla duga noć i plačem, jer mi nedostaje brat
I za život, dobio tvoj sis i majku
Znate da plačem, jer mi nedostaje brat
Moj brat je bio SBTV