When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 26/04/2023 - BR X
When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
[Verse 2]
Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
[Verse 3]
Charlie, stop smoking
Caroline, will you be with me?
Will the baby be alright?
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
It's said that my mind
Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
I guess I'll be fine
[Verse 4]
It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons inside
But without them, I'd die
They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy, I
See nothing Greek in it
Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Dave
Who hung himself real high
In the National Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right now
To get to you, save you, if I take my life
Find your astral body, put it into my arms
Give you two seconds to cry
Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
Cause, baby, I
Ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
[Verse 5]
I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
I had to sing for the prince in two hours
Sat in the shower
Gave myself two seconds to cry
It's a shame that we die
[Verse 6]
When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
But, sometimes, it's just not your time
[Verse 7]
Caroline, what kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by
The lake, twisting lime into the drinks that they made
Have a babe at sixteen in the town I was born in, and die
[Verse 8]
Aaron ended up dead and not me
What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?
Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child
I give myself two seconds to cry
[Verse 9]
Let it crash over me
Like the waves in the sea
Call me Aphrodite, as they bow down to me
[Verse 10]
Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
I give myself two seconds to breathe
And go back to being a serene queen
I just needed two seconds to be me
Orqaga qaraganimda, barmoq uchlarini plastik qoplarga kuzatib borish
O'ylash: "Men ozgina niyatni ekstrapolyatsiya qilishimni istardim
Yoki shunchaki e'tiboringizni bir yoki ikki daqiqaga oling »
[2-oyat]
Men o'lamanmi? Yoki men o'sha o'n yillik markaga erishamanmi?
Men telomerlarning yo'q bo'lib ketishini qayerdan urdim?
Agar men qilsam, men bilan birga bo'lasizmi, otam, singil, akam?
[3- oyat]
Charli, chekishni to'xtating
Karolin, siz men bilan bo'lasizmi?
Bolam yaxshi bo'ladimi?
Mendan bittasi bormi?
Agar qilsam ham buni hal qila olamanmi?
Bu mening fikrim
Bolasini ko'tarish uchun mos kelmaydi
O'ylaymanki, men yaxshi bo'laman
[4- oyat]
Bu mening fikrim emas, ichkarida neyronlarning neyronlari
Lekin ularsiz vafot etgan bo'lardim
Ular musiqada istehzo bilan aytadilar, bu fojia, men
Unda yunoncha narsani ko'rmang
Dadam, buvisi, buvisi va Deyv bilan Rode oroliga maqbarub bering
Kim o'zini haqiqiy baland ovoz bilan ochdi
Milliy park osmonida bu uyat va men hozir yig'layapman
Agar men hayotimni olsam, sizga murojaat qilish
Astral tanangizni toping, uni quchog'imga soling
Yig'lash uchun sizga ikki soniya bering
Uyga olib bor, men sizga adyol beraman
Sizning Ruhingiz men tomoni bilan televizorni ko'rishi mumkin
Sabab, bola, men
O'zingizni qilayotganingizni his qilgan vaqt o'tishi bilan yugurdim
[5- oyat]
Men buni hal qila olmadim, men Monakoda edim
Telefonda aytganlarini eshita olmadim
Men ikki soat ichida shahzodani kuylashim kerak edi
Dushda o'tirdi
Yig'lash uchun ikki soniya berdi
Biz o'limimiz sharmanda
[6- oyat]
Yalang'och, yalang'och, yonidagi eshiklar harakat qilishganida
Belim, plyaj tomonida uzun sochlar meni tortdi
Men siz kabi ko'chaga chiqishni xohlardim, baliq bilan suzishni xohladim
U Rode oroli plyajlarida ushlandi
Ammo, ba'zida, bu sizning vaqtingiz emas
[7- oyat]
Kerolin, u qanday onani muassasalarda tugaydi?
Men istagan narsalarim Horun Greenni o'pish va o'tirish
Ular yasagan ichimliklarga ko'l, egiluvchan ohak
Men tug'ilgan o'n oltidan o'n olti yoshda, men o'laman
[8- oyat]
Horun meni emas, o'lik holda tugadi
Meni yo'q qilish uchun boshingda nima yuz bermaydi?
Ekzotik joylar va odamlar sizning bolangiz bo'lish joyini olmaydilar
Men o'zimga yig'lash uchun o'zimga ikki soniya beraman
[9- oyat]
Bu meni ishdan bo'shating
Dengizdagi to'lqinlar kabi
Menga ta'zim qilib, afroditga qo'ng'iroq qiling
[10- oyat]
Sunabom, Oy Laver, hamdardlik malikasi
Men nafas olish uchun o'zimga ikki soniya beraman
Va xotirjam malika bo'lishga qayting
Menga ikki soniya kerak edi