When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 26/04/2023 - BR X
When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
[Verse 2]
Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
[Verse 3]
Charlie, stop smoking
Caroline, will you be with me?
Will the baby be alright?
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
It's said that my mind
Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
I guess I'll be fine
[Verse 4]
It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons inside
But without them, I'd die
They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy, I
See nothing Greek in it
Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Dave
Who hung himself real high
In the National Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right now
To get to you, save you, if I take my life
Find your astral body, put it into my arms
Give you two seconds to cry
Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
Cause, baby, I
Ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
[Verse 5]
I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
I had to sing for the prince in two hours
Sat in the shower
Gave myself two seconds to cry
It's a shame that we die
[Verse 6]
When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
But, sometimes, it's just not your time
[Verse 7]
Caroline, what kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by
The lake, twisting lime into the drinks that they made
Have a babe at sixteen in the town I was born in, and die
[Verse 8]
Aaron ended up dead and not me
What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?
Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child
I give myself two seconds to cry
[Verse 9]
Let it crash over me
Like the waves in the sea
Call me Aphrodite, as they bow down to me
[Verse 10]
Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
I give myself two seconds to breathe
And go back to being a serene queen
I just needed two seconds to be me
Kad se osvrnem, prate vrhove prstiju preko plastičnih vrećica
Misleći: "Volio bih da mogu ekstrapolirati neku malu namjeru
Ili možda samo privucite pažnju na minutu ili dvije "
[Stih 2]
Hoću li umrijeti? Ili ću doći do te desetogodišnje oznake?
Gdje sam pobijedio izumiranje telomera?
A ako to učinim, hoćeš li biti tamo sa mnom, ocem, sestra, brate?
[Stih 3]
Charlie, prestani pušiti
Caroline, hoćeš li biti sa mnom?
Hoće li beba biti u redu?
Hoću li imati jedno od mojih?
Mogu li to podnijeti čak i ako to učinim?
Kaže se da je moj um
Nije prikladan, ili su tako rekli, nositi dijete
Valjda ću biti dobro
[Stih 4]
To nije bila moja ideja, koktel stvari koje uvija neurone unutra
Ali bez njih bih umro
Kažu da u glazbi postoji ironija, to je tragedija,
U njemu ne vidi ništa grčko
Dajte mi mauzolej na Rhode Islandu s tatom, bakom, djedom i Daveom
Tko se visio visoko
Na nebu Nacionalnog parka sramota je i trenutno plačem
Da dođem do vas, spasi te, ako oduzmem svoj život
Pronađite svoje astralno tijelo, stavite mi u naručje
Daj vam dvije sekunde da plačete
Odvedi te kući, ja, dat ću ti pokrivač
Vaš duh može sjediti i gledati TV uz mene
Uzrok, dušo, ja
Trčao kroz vrijeme kad sam osjetio da to radiš
[Stih 5]
Nisam se mogao podnijeti, bio sam u Monaku
Nisam mogao čuti što su rekli telefonom
Morao sam pjevati za princa za dva sata
Sjeo pod tušem
Dao sam sebi dvije sekunde da plačem
Šteta što umiremo
[Stih 6]
Kad sam imao petnaest, goli, susjedi u susjedstvu napravili su vožnju
Povukao me za struk, dugu kosu na plažu
Htio sam izaći poput tebe, plivati s ribama
Da je uhvatio na plažama Rhode Islanda
Ali, ponekad, jednostavno nije vaše vrijeme
[Stih 7]
Caroline, kakva je majka rekla da bih završila u institucijama?
Sve što sam želio je poljubiti Aarona Greena i sjediti
Jezero, uvijajući vapno u piće koje su napravili
Imati bebu u šesnaest u gradu u kojem sam rođen i umro
[Stih 8]
Aaron je završio mrtav, a ne ja
Koji je kurac u glavi da me pošalje, da se nikad ne vratiš?
Egzotična mjesta i ljudi ne zauzimaju mjesto vašeg djeteta
Dajem sebi dvije sekunde da plačem
[Stih 9]
Neka se sruši nad mnom
Poput valova u moru
Nazovite me Afhrodite, dok mi se klanjaju
[Stih 10]
Sunca, Moon Chaser, kraljica empatije
Dajem sebi dvije sekunde da dišem
I vrati se biti spokojna kraljica
Samo su mi trebale dvije sekunde da budem ja