When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
by Sanderlei Silveira ® - 26/04/2023 - BR X
When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two"
[Verse 2]
Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
[Verse 3]
Charlie, stop smoking
Caroline, will you be with me?
Will the baby be alright?
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
It's said that my mind
Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
I guess I'll be fine
[Verse 4]
It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons inside
But without them, I'd die
They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy, I
See nothing Greek in it
Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Dave
Who hung himself real high
In the National Park sky, it's a shame and I'm crying right now
To get to you, save you, if I take my life
Find your astral body, put it into my arms
Give you two seconds to cry
Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
Cause, baby, I
Ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
[Verse 5]
I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
I had to sing for the prince in two hours
Sat in the shower
Gave myself two seconds to cry
It's a shame that we die
[Verse 6]
When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
But, sometimes, it's just not your time
[Verse 7]
Caroline, what kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by
The lake, twisting lime into the drinks that they made
Have a babe at sixteen in the town I was born in, and die
[Verse 8]
Aaron ended up dead and not me
What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?
Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child
I give myself two seconds to cry
[Verse 9]
Let it crash over me
Like the waves in the sea
Call me Aphrodite, as they bow down to me
[Verse 10]
Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
I give myself two seconds to breathe
And go back to being a serene queen
I just needed two seconds to be me
Dema ku ez vegerim, şopandina tiliyên li ser çenteyên plastîk
Difikirin, "Ez dixwazim ku ez dikarim hinek niyeta piçûk derxînim
An jî dibe ku tenê bala we bikişîne ji bo deqîqe an du "
[Ayetek 2]
Ma ez ê bimirim? An jî ez ê bigihîjim wê deh-salê?
Li ku min lêdana telomeresê lêdan?
If heke ez bikim, ma hûn ê li wir bi min re, Bavo, xwişk, bira?
[Ayets 3]
Charlie, cixare raweste
Caroline, hûn ê bi min re bibin?
Dê pitik baş be?
Ma ez ê yek ji min hebe?
Ma ez dikarim wê karibînim ku ez bikim?
Tê gotin ku hişê min
Ne fit e, an jî wan digot, da ku zarokek bîne
Ez texmîn dikim ku ez ê baş bibim
[Ayets 4]
Ew ne ramana min bû, kokteylê tiştên ku di hundurê de diherike
Lê bê wan, ez ê bimirim
Ew dibêjin ku di muzîkê de ironî heye, ew trajediyek e, ez
Di wê de tiştek nîne
Bi Dad, Dapî, Bapîr, û Dave re li Girava Rhode-ê min bide min
Yê ku xwe bilind kir bilind
Li ezmana Parka Neteweyî, şerm e û ez niha digirîn
Ji bo ku hûn ji we re bibin, heke ez jiyana xwe bavêjim we xilas bike
Laşê xwe yê astral bibînin, wê bixin nav milên min
Du seconds bide min
Ez bavêjim malê, ez, ez ê banek bidim we
Ruhê we dikare li tenişta min rûne û temaşe bike
Sedem, pitik, ez
Dema ku min hîs kir ku we ew dikir
[Ayets 5]
Min nikaribû wê birêve bikim, ez li Monaco bûm
Min nikaribû tiştê ku wan digel têlefonê digotin bibihîzim
Di du saetan de pêdivî bû ku ez ji bo prince stranbêj bikim
Li serşokê rûnişt
Ji xwe re du seconds da ku ez qîr bikim
Aermek e ku em dimirin
[Ayet 6]
Gava ku ez panzdeh, tazî, cîranên derî bûm ajokarek - ji hêla
Min ji destê min ve kişand, porê dirêj li tenişta peravê
Min dixwest ku ez mîna we derkevim, bi masî
Ku wî li ser seyrên Rhode Island girtin
Lê, carinan, ew tenê ne dema we ye
[Ayse 7]
Caroline, ew çi celeb bû ku ew bibêje ez ê di saziyan de bidawî bibim?
Tişta ku min dixwest ez bikim bû ku ji hêla Aaron Greene re maçî bû û rûne
Golê, lîmonê di vexwarinên ku wan çêkir de çêdike
Li bajarokê ku ez hatim dinê, ez li Bajarê min im, û bimirim
[Ayse 8]
Aaron mirî bi dawî bû û ne ez
Di serê we de çewt e ku ez ji min re bişînim, tu carî venegerin?
Cihên exotic û mirov devera zarokê we negire
Ez du seconds didim ku digirîn
[Ayets 9]
Bila ew li ser min hilweşe
Mîna pêlên li deryayê
Ji min re dibêjin Aphrodite, gava ku ew li ber min radibin
[Ayets 10]
Sunbather, Moon Chaser, Queen of Empathy
Ez du seconds didim ku bêhna xwe bidim
Û vegerin ser Queen Sier
Ez tenê hewceyê du seconds bûm ku ez bibim